Fishyotter!

=new look, bloody blogger=

2009-08-28T06:48:00.000-07:00

blogger still looks bloody distorted on firefox now, i wonder if theres anything to do regarding that denial-of-service attack that actually occured a really long time ago.

switched accounts (and in turn the address) as i do not want to repeatedly change accounts everytime i switch from blogger to gmail, and vice versa. fortunately i managed to notice despite the flawed programming that we can actually import and export entries from a previous blog in another account.

it has been (almost) a month since i officially became a varsity student, albeit a really demonic month. matriculating has been a really rude wake up call as to how realistic, well, reality can be, and many a times it is very, VERY disturbing. moreover seeing girls fresh out of high school with various modes of mindsets towards life, makes me feel REALLY REALLY OLD. Perhaps this is what the true underlying purpose of NS? to make you feel "superior", "mature", "more valuable"?

sadly our lives are filled with alot of wake-up calls, but this is not due to the fact that our society, government, parents etc. are lacking and incompetent. we only have ourselves to nail on the wall everytime we go,'shit, i'd wish i had done better previously.'

being me, i'd go,"why the fuck is there even the need for wake-up calls?"
thats right, either dont go to sleep at all, or die sleeping.
~~

3 weeks into NUS, and i got hit with the biggest arrow ever since getting into commando school. being an IFG captain zz. now i understand the woes of being a leader, of which i will never be a good one somehow. you should be able to feel this way too, its like some people are meant to lead the way, and some people are meant to follow. its a system that all of us will never escape. be in the wrong side, and the whole system will fail terribly.

and thanks ah, nobody turned up for training zz. NUS is aspiring to be a Global Knowledge Enterprise? Looks like its only being ruined by the Greatest Knumbskulls Ever found all over the school. A pity, it doesnt reflect how good the school really is.

unlimited sky

2009-07-20T11:25:00.000-07:00

Trampling on the remains of a left-behind dream
The whimsical death god stopped and stood

Passing by, it watches me coldly
As if to instigate a foolish sin
It shook and untangled its outstretched hands

Devastating sadness
Overshadows my heart and
Is cruelly repeated over and over

We came to hate even those precious days we can’t return to
What can we do?
We didn’t understand the meaning
Of the glory we carried

The sensations that should have been cast away are resurrected
While clad in serenity
We accelerate and hide our irritations
Things like emotions are useless
But our hearts can’t catch up

The fallen angel swooped down on
The scenario of rebellion
Why are you outside the light?
I realized
If I hadn’t been born as I am,
Would I have been ridiculed?
Within in a selfless love
We don’t know things like solitude

I gazed into the distant sky
That reflected my nostalgia
But no matter how much I wish
I can’t be touched by eternity

I lost to my own darkness

Everyone who can stand is fighting
And carries unfading scars

Devastating sadness
Overshadows my heart and
Is cruelly repeated over and over

The stolen, fleeting light
Connects to the living proof
No matter the fate
I’ll accept it,
And live until the last moment

-Gundam 00 Season 2 Epsiode Insert Song, Unlimited Sky by Tommy Heavenly6, english translation of the song lyric.

=mary-lou=

2009-06-26T09:52:00.000-07:00

Mamas put your babies to sleep, story too cruelsome for
them this is. In Junior high she said goodbye to her parents and ran
away with a boy. She left her family warm and kind, all of her friends said
"you're out of your mind". Life of her own she would find,
it's monday and she's gotta grind.

A Job as a waitress she sure was to find, beautiful face,
mind of a child. Boy got her pregnant, Mary-Lou cried," For this I am
too young oh why did you lie" You said "it's okay if we do it today", I was
so scared that you would go away. "Despite all the papers been signed,
mama take me back be so kind".

Only a child, reckless and wild, needs to come
home again. He promised the moon but won't marry you.
Nothing to do, eating for two, he's goin' out with
someone new. Sunshine or rain, it's all the same, life isn't gray
oh Mary-Lou.

Mamas do your children still sleep, in the safe of their
cradles so sweet. Story I told you I have forseen, Your little angel ain't
always so clean. Days to come aren't easy to see, You can change 'em but
it isn't free. I see that you don't believe, ooo-oo, but you will see.

=Mysteria=

2009-06-10T10:24:00.000-07:00

The world around is killing me
No thunder, wind and rain
Eels are crawling everywhere
Compounding with the game

Grind the army, the living dead, without destination
The faceless crowd is out to kill all kinds of variations

You're trying to trample down my dreams
A shot in the dark

Mysteria - the spirit arising
Eldritch cries from the hill
Mysteria - fires are blazing
Their wicked feast is shattering the still

Seven days and nights a week
Spinning like a wheel
You try to buckle, bend and break
And polish stainless steel

Raging fury in the sky burning with desire
Self-determination rising from the fire

You're trying to trample down my dreams
My disdained ideals
Beware of the difference
We're savage and mean

Mysteria - the spirit arising
Eldritch cries from the hill
Mysteria - fires are blazing
Their wicked feast is shattering the still

Evil is the dreamer to pit himself
Against the forces of the tide
You pay the see to portray
What you wanna hear what he has seen that night
Oh - unholy is the feast
Watch us dance around the the blazing hellfire
And Lucifer arises he appears at my desire

Mysteria - the spirit arising
Eldritch cries from the hill
Mysteria - fires are blazing
Their wicked feast is shattering the still

Mysteria - the spirit arising
Eldritch cries from the hill
Mysteria - fires are blazing
Their wicked feast is shattering the still

=this love has taken its toll=

2009-06-06T09:18:00.000-07:00

I was so high I did not recognize
The fire burning in her eyes
The chaos that controlled my mind
Whispered goodbye and she got on a plane
Never to return again
But always in my heart

This love has taken its toll on me
She said Goodbye too many times before
And her heart is breaking in front of me
I have no choice cause I won't say goodbye anymore

I tried my best to feed her appetite
Keep her coming every night
So hard to keep her satisfied
Kept playing love like it was just a game
Pretending to feel the same
Then turn around and leave again

This love has taken its toll on me
She said Goodbye too many times before
And her heart is breaking in front of me
I have no choice cause I won't say goodbye anymore

I'll fix these broken things
Repair your broken wings
And make sure everything's alright
My pressure on your hips
Sinking my fingertips
Into every inch of you
Cause I know that's what you want me to do

This love has taken its toll on me
She said Goodbye too many times before
And her heart is breaking in front of me
I have no choice cause I won't say goodbye anymore

This love has taken its toll on me
She said Goodbye too many times before
And my heart is breaking in front of me
She said Goodbye too many times before

This love has taken its toll on me
She said Goodbye too many times before
And her heart is breaking in front of me
I have no choice cause I won't say goodbye anymore...

=SATSUGAI=

2009-05-25T10:38:00.000-07:00

俺は地獄のテロリスト
昨日は母さん犯したぜ
明日は父さんほってやる
I am a terrorist straight out of hell

俺には父さん母さんいねえ
それは俺が殺したから
俺にゃ友達恋人いねえ
それは俺が殺したから

殺せ殺せ親など殺せ
殺せ殺せすべてを殺せ

サツガイサツガイせよ
サツガイサツガイせよ
(KILL! KILL! KILL! KILL!)
思い出を血に染めてやれ
サツガイサツガイせよ
サツガイサツガイせよ
(KILL! KILL! KILL! KILL!)
未来など血に染めてやれ

殺せ殺せ親など殺せ
殺せ殺せすべてを殺せ

俺は地獄を支配した
今朝は兄弟ひきちぎり
俺が親戚灰にした
I am a terrorist straight out of hell

俺には兄弟親戚いねえ
それは俺が殺したから
俺に神も仏もいねえ
それは俺が殺したから

殺せ殺せ親など殺せ
殺せ殺せすべてを殺せ

サツガイサツガイせよ
サツガイサツガイせよ
(KILL! KILL! KILL! KILL!)
思い出を血に染めてやれ
サツガイサツガイせよ
サツガイサツガイせよ
(KILL! KILL! KILL! KILL!)
未来など血に染めてやれ

殺せ殺せ親など殺せ
殺せ殺せすべてを殺せ

サツガイサツガイせよ
サツガイサツガイせよ
(KILL! KILL! KILL! KILL!)
思い出を血に染めてやれ
サツガイサツガイせよ
サツガイサツガイせよ
SATSUGAI!

2009-05-23T00:45:00.000-07:00

**One idiot who deleted me on MSN, didn't invited me to his birthday party. I don't even consider you as my friend. Haha. Watch out when you're in school. I hope you're gonna be lonely in school. Aww. (:

**all rights reserved to the respective authors of the above text,irregardless of over-glorified or under-appreciated.

=smoke on the water=

2009-04-08T06:58:00.000-07:00

Theres this new craze going up and around lately, but for some reason among all that hype, i have never heard of what the fuck is that.

and thats what they call "shisha smoking"

What is Shisha smoking?
more commonly known as "hookah", it involves smoking through a pipe thats linked to a heating stove, and with tobacco placed on top of it. it supposedly is a "healthier" choice, as the water "cleanses" the tobacco and less nicotine goes into the smoke your breathe in.

if you dont know wtf is that too, you can recall alice in wonderland, where the caterpillar was smoking a hookah.

With the modernization of all sorts of funny things you know, shisha has evolved to include "tobacco free" flavors which uses sugar cane fibre and concentrate.
~~

but just how "pure and innocent" shisha is?

in my opinion, not really what it seems, and theres plenty of stuff on the web that supports this.

From: http://www.stoptabac.ch/en/Narghile/nar.html

"While using tobacco-free herbs with a shisha is safer (not as bad as smoking tobacco), the biggest hazard for hookah users is that it produces greater levels of carbon monoxide. So smoking too much or in an enclosed area can be unhealthy. Since taking anything other than clean air into your lungs cannot possibly be good for the body, I would not advise it. Same for the second-hand smoke. Shisha smoking cannot be harmless; there is a risk and it is is avoidable. Tell your friend to be sensible, it is an unnecessary risk and habit - there are safer pleasures in life."

i dont know why it has become so addictive. in the first place, breathing anything other than air is not good for anyone. the heating (combustion) of any plant material will definitely lead to production of tar (carbon and other organic compounds) and it will of course hurt you.

but, the ones who get hurt the most are not the ones smoking.

=supersonic=

2009-04-05T02:49:00.000-07:00

I need to be myself
I can't be no one else
I'm feeling supersonic
Give me gin and tonic
You can have it all but how much do you want it?
You make me laugh
Give me your autograph
Can I ride with you in your B.M.W ?
You can sail with me in my yellow submarine

You need to find out
'Cos no one's gonna tell you what I'm on about
You need to find a way for what you want to say
But before tomorrow

'Cos my friend said he'd take you home
He sits in a corner all alone
He lives under a waterfall
No body can see him
No body can ever hear him call

You need to be yourself
You can't be no one else
I know a girl called Elsa
She's into Alka Seltzer
She sniffs it through a cane on a supersonic train
She made me laugh
I got her autograph
She done it with a doctor on a helicopter
She's sniffin in her tissue
Sellin' the Big Issue

She needs to find out
'Cos no one's gonna tell you what I'm on about
She needs to find a way for what she wants to say
But before tomorrow

'Cos my friend said he'd take you home
He sits in a corner all alone
He lives under a waterfall
No body can see him
No body can ever hear him call

=overdue amount=

2009-03-31T05:34:00.000-07:00

its kinda sad, when youre almost 50, riddled with debt, and the only people that bother helping you with your pathetic life, is the family that you forsaken for the dreams of another.

and to think a SH billing staff had to have a billing dispute with M1. LOL. kinda dumb though.

next up: birthday pics!
thanks all for coming and as well as the pretty pretty gifts! includes stress relief tools, cars and kinky jackets.

batteries not included though.

=Acquiesce=

2009-03-26T08:37:00.000-07:00

Because we need each other
We believe in one another
And I know we're going to uncover
What's sleepin' in our soul
Because we need each other
We believe in one another
I know we're going to uncover
What's sleepin' in our soul
What's sleepin' in our soul

=infinity=

2009-03-19T09:24:00.000-07:00

Mother watch your children
The iron fist of fear is ruling our lives
It's not too late to change the course
We can make this world a better place to be in

How much more do we want until we're satisfied?
What happens when we have what we want?
Acquiring more, still there's never enough
We forget those who really are in need

The end is near, so they say
Selling peace with guns

Infinity - Where do we go from here?
Infinity - Where do we go from here?
Infinity - Where do we go?
Infinity - Where do we go from here?

Guns spitting message of peace everywhere
Is it really that we don't care?
See mercenaries of fear selling love
Telling salvation comes from above
Arrogance and fear walking hand in hand
We must see that there's much more to life than this

Mother see your children
Make us understand and help us to find the way
The answers lie inside
They are locked inside to the vault of truth for us
It's time to spread the world around
Be yourself and do what you want to do with your life
Remember, you get just what you give
You reap all what you sow
You are in charge of your own life

Infinity - Where do we go from here?
Infinity - Where do we go from here?
Infinity - Where do we go?
Infinity - Where do we go from here?

You make your own way
As long as you are here
Find your place in life
Make your dreams come true
There's so much more than this
A million ways to live
Unlock the door
To the universe with love
Free your soul

=for free~=

2009-03-14T23:31:00.000-07:00

in a flash im almost employed for almost 4mths. a few of my colleagues have left to search for a greener future, hopefully not until their face turns green. as what wayne puts it, its all for the money..
and to what my customer told me, when one gets down on the roll, everything goes. and suddenly im hit with a series of syndromes that will rarely occur, if not at all.
then again the biggest irony is that the most lucky thing i ever met with is to live the life im able to live now. just read a book "the book for the lazy achiever" and a good concept of the book to ponder on is "how do you define success"? for some it involves putting up a family and sending your kids thru college, others label it accordingly to the amount of liquid assets on their fingers. i have heard from a friend that success to him is to remark that he 'dig that' with the maximum possible number of ladies. whether was he joking or not, i wish him all the best. haha.

for me? the big self-proclaimed egoistical slacker that i am, success is still not an issue to me as of this point in my life. Why worry? we can fail to succeed, and succeed to fail. right now the more important thing of my life is not only to recover from the "investment crisis" resulting in heavy bleeding, so that i do not end up in a big financial mess in the long run.
and of course to be with my loved ones in this trying period, though sometimes my silence may put them off as disconcern. =[

and so here i am typing in my favorite branded coffee chain for the sake of aircon, and good ambience to study listening to richard marx, sting and bryan adams and drinking my WCD ice blended, while my love adorably fumbles thru her notes for the upcoming test. it seems like one of the few things i can do for her especially when i dont know anything about Correction of Correlations and Portfolio Theories. am i still suitable for management?

and damn that weather's fucked.

in any case,
birthday chalet's coming in march 28, anybody is welcome but do RSVP to me. i need to prepare for your arrival =]
mail me at naheuy at gee-mail dort com
or text me at nine 7 nine 7 one 1 zero 3. =]

=it wont fade=

2009-03-14T23:29:00.000-07:00

You borrow the moment, betray your own heavens
The darkness is thickening, breathing gets harder
The balance is off, some take more than give back,
the attitude, ignorance, proved to be fatal

for that tiny spark that led our way
you poisoned the air, should you stay away, hence
Wish to be one of us, follow the trail
Take the time offered, don't toss it away

travesty, no trial, defendant is guilty
and we are the judges and sentence the jury
to pay for forgiveness with silent contentment
Stand in the line with the rest of us

We cannot carry you further today
hear what you don't say, thus help... in any way
Need you to learn how to cry without darkness
Face like the others the pain that is harmless

Feel the world has let you down
somehow, we cannot see this
Have to bear the winterburn
You can only wait, if it will fade with time

Secrecy, silence, a stench of treason
the glow of the darkness, you brought in the daylight
The cure will not kill you, there's no such mercy.
rules of the nature are fair and cruel...

we cannot wait for you, for limbo, forever
don't make us walk away, packs stay together
Fear would be justified. Will be there soon.
The things that you do will infect us too

Feel the world has let you down
somehow, we cannot see this
Have to bear the winterburn
You can only wait, if it will fade with time

Where's your trust, where's your heart, where's your soul?
Who's your friend? Who'll be there in the end?

Who do you call a friend...
should we start to bewail?

a lot of things are changing
and re-arranging
I have to say I saw it coming
yet did nothing...
In the darkest of times
B.o.B's earn the right for the name

Not all shared the idea to give you the chance to
fail us again, to bite off
the feeding hand...

counting one, two...see?
odds defying the gravity...

we'll move along, well fed puppy...
you are too confident and careless to cut it
had no rules, that is to change
or you'll forever run alone

but you never will, the little child of the wild
you've got a skin, gray coat, they hate
no, you cannot hide behind your glowing eyes
you bear the sign and it won't fade

Feel the world has let you down
somehow, we cannot see this
Have to bear the winterburn
You can only wait if it will fade with time

=vengeance=

2009-02-23T05:45:00.000-08:00

too much working life got the better of me, and even though i resolved to tell more on whats happening.

a zip in the eye, and its the last week of February. How was your year?

Valentines' this year... was terrific.
Couldnt spend the day itself because i got worrrrkkkk damn. instead, a tantalizing Thirteenth Febuary, the Friday awaits.
lingered around Far East for a little while before heading for a really, well, not bad buffet high tea.

the high tea was at Royal Plaza at Scotts. if you havent heard before, its called Carousel. being a mountain turtle, i called one day beforehand to make a booking. the person on the phone kind of proudly proclaimed that 'Of course you need a reservation!"
and behold, there was a mofo long queue outside the restaurant, obviously not open for the buffet yet. then i got over to the counter and noted to them that i had a reservation, as if it was some form of achievement hahahahaaha.
to my disdain, the queue was all the people WITH reservations. zz. then again i saw my name brightly on the reservation list so i had no qualms anyway.

its quite an international fare, will definitely go there when my stomach is feeling better. ever since the worst 2 weeks of my life, it hasnt been good.
well food there include some asian fare, very great finger foods. and the durian prata's not bad, although they could have put much more durian in it hahaha.

more food!

rojak~! with too much sugar!!

note: girl not included

i have alot of pictures, but its in delia's cam. rawr. upload your pics pls!

thats it then.

In black and white

2009-01-20T17:47:00.000-08:00

I'm a doorman at my Death Row, you faceless foe of heart
An accent, a drop of darkest blood on snow, white feather in the tar....
a tearstain on your frozen face...
A life - in black and white

You slaughtered my soul again
Tried my best to be worth your two realities
You're breaking my heart again
To squeeze out a rhyme, I bid you farewell

Stupidity, ignorance, leave a light on for the blind

Now I will hit you where it hurts
Take what is rightfully mine, I need a sign
That you're worth fighting for
Winning or losing, alone
I am only a pawn

I'm tired of pleasing you
Discolored this emptiness, wrapped in a scheme
I ....delayed my dreams to see
---Who blinded your eyes from things that are real...

For me, I believe in the taste of bitter sweet
Dying fountains full of stories untold
After a history of "losses" attained the victory where it occurred
Lips so cold, the final testing ground for beautiful words

Diving in the seas of sin, without knowing where lies the bottom
Idle moments spawned you idle people, no morality, no soul.

Sabotage or a fatal mistake?
Scandal born, new race
Unauthorized use, not stealing?
We've no rights, just passion and rage...

People you know, on your side, touching concern
Stand on a chair and scream as the tables turn
Take a bow, take the blame, soon you'll wake up screaming your nightmare's name...

Now I will hit you where it hurts
Take what is rightfully mine, I need a sign
That you're worth fighting for
Winning and losing, alone
I am only a pawn

People you know, on your side, touching concern
Stand on a chair and scream as the tables turn
Always a minute too late, now feel the burn
Wake up, friend, you're screaming the name of the

Doorman of my Death row, you faceless foe of the heart
An accent, a drop of darkest blood on snow, white feather in the tar....
Tearstains on my frozen face, follow the wicked trail if you
Wish you see the sum of all my fears in many shades of gray
You’ll see...
Your dreams in Black and white....Nightmares in Black and White...
Sweet dreams in Black and White...Your life is Black and White...

=internet is not only for porn=

2009-01-10T05:55:00.000-08:00

finally, some release from that bind.

well, the reason why i have not been blogging for about 2-3 weeks is not because i decided to live in my office, but because some jackass REFUSES to commit himself to paying the bills, and would rather live a life of debt. in the end it took me to sign up for a new broadband service which i will hereby commit to support till i matriculate. besides the point i dont see what he needs to be around anymore. nothing to will to me if hes dead anw. "我很有钱！~"

meanwhile, merry new year and happy christmas on a super belated tone. had alot of fun w/ delia esp when she came back from china *was so lonely T_T* well like for example, the new year day beach outing ^^
=p

of course nothing beats a beach outing with lots of kids. (nephew)
obviously nobody can resist the charm that delia can bring, esp to kids. lol.

ok, now the burning question. if it were you, which one would you want? i would prefer A) though

A)HTC touch pro

B) HTC touch diamond

C) Xperia
D) HTC S740 Rose

=family?=

2008-12-20T17:51:00.000-08:00

its weird, that the ones that you're supposed to share protection, and good times with, dont give a fuck about you.

its xxxmas time~ are you ready? though its quite a challenge finding presents for those that reciprocate my good intentions for them. regardless! i love a challenge =]

and i felt quite bad to shrug off that auntie selling pens for 'needy families' at PS.

=weballergy=

2008-12-13T17:57:00.000-08:00

We only have one candle
To burn down to the handle
No matter what they say
If you live like a man, You live in tales you tell

To rage and run like a fool
You need no brain, your best tool
Stay put and as they say
Live like a man, the only way you can

You let the phone line bring it home to you
The life, the lies, the dreams
You cannot see the real thing underneath
- Naked truth revealed

You type your name on one row
To get dosed-up tomorrow
You live in a CC dream, with your machine
It's your goal supreme

You think you have it all now
The wisdom, power, know-how
Can't even think you're wrong
This is the way the brain of a male is made

You let the phone line bring it home to you
The life, the lies, the dreams
You cannot see the real thing underneath
- Naked light revealed

If you live, you will die
You won't live forever stuck in time
Ebb and flow, push and tow
You must keep it real to find her

You let the phone line bring it home to you
The life, the lies, the dreams
Can't even see the real thing underneath
- Naked light revealed

If you live, you will die
You won't live forever stuck in time
Ebb and flow, push and tow
You must keep it real to find her

=hubclub=

2008-12-06T20:37:00.000-08:00

alright so i havent been online lately. other than work thats also due to the fact that my maxonline has been suspended zz. so yea anw lots have been going on in my life after i ord-ed; from work, to lonely days, and bumping into people i will get bad luck bumping into.

currently, the only thing i can tell you is im working at starhub. no more, so please dont ask me for discounts zz.

delia's all the way at xiamen since last weekend, hence im able to catch up with alph to watch james bond the other day, and for a good reason i didnt pay attention to my neighbours up till the show is over. if not itll spoil the movie man. hahahaha.

now that im out of national serivce, i have to find another sense of purpose. even though im employed, sometimes i realise im lost in whatever i want to do with these 9 mths. some tell me 'go on a posh overseas trip to europe!" some will tell me to slog my lungs out, some will tell me this that blah blah blah. whatever it is, i only have one thing to say.

why so serious? =]
take it a step at a time, i feel thats how life should be.

=silence=

2008-11-24T05:23:00.000-08:00

1. ...Of Silence

It truly makes the most beautiful music
Everything it has to give
It's everywhere hiding the listener
Without it I could not live
...Silence

however that, i didnt get any tonight.
~~
2. i was watching bleach (finally, i started) and right at episode three (3), ichigo said something about 'why older brothers were born first'. that is, 'to protect the younger ones that come after him'
but i start to think that sometimes, are they worth protecting?

very typical army poster sign (minus the 03x extra to offender part). the base level of instilling a sense of discipline, that is through visual stimulus. but well, some people just have too much ego to admit even to themselves that they're guilty of the above-mentioned.

it wasnt even directed at that person, yet guilty conscience kicks in to ring alarm bells inside. and hence it ruined that beautiful stanza of words on top. there was a totally different meaning as to what was this meant for. in the end, i was the bad guy.

it doesnt help with a higher authority playing the emotional card whenever things go against favour. like hello? im already 20 years old, and reach 21 not long soon. im SUPPOSED to be a man already, if not, a very mature boy. although i hated my life back at the workshop there were some things i had learnt well. one of those things is to take action and make a change.

it doesnt help with a fucked up father who acts like a leech when in the house. letters piling up from 2007 can still be found. a mum that has a mindset that piling and re-stacking things up equates to 'cleaning up'. a sister who studies on the dining table. i had to eat at my study table because the dining table was 'conquered' and i was asked to "cc pls" LOL and whats more i get scolded if i dirty her paperwork on the dining table. like, what are they doing there in the first place?

and you say i dont do the chores. do i get appreciated when i do them?
the effects dont even last 24 hours.

...and i didnt even get a single thanks for looking after the house for these 3 days...

=replica=

2008-11-15T11:06:00.000-08:00

[Tony Kakko]

I'm home again, I won the war, and now I am behind
your door. I tried so hard to obey the law, and see the
meaning of this all. Remember me? Before the war.
I'm the man who lived next door. Long ago...

As you can see, when you look at me, I'm pieces of
what I used to be. It's easier when you don't see me
standing on my own two feet. I'm taller when I sit
here still, you ask are all my dreams fulfilled.
They made me a heart of steel, the kind them bullets
cannot see, yeah.

Nothing's what it seems to be,
I'm a replica, I'm a replica
Empty shell inside of me
I'm not myself, I'm a replica of me...

The light is green, my slate is clean, new life to fill
the hole in me. I had no name, last December, Christmas
Eve I can't remember. I was in a constant pain, I saw
your shadow in the rain. I painted all your pigeons red,
I wish I had stayed home instead, yeah.

Nothing's what it seems to be,
I'm a replica, I'm a replica
Empty shell inside of me
I'm not myself, I'm a replica of me...

Are you gonna leave me now, when it is all over
Are you gonna leave me, is my world now over...

Raising from the place I've been, and trying to keep
my home base clean. Now I'm here and won't go back believe.

I fall asleep and dream a dream, I'm floating in a
silent scream. No-one placing blame on me
But nothing's what it seems to be, yeah.

Nothing's what it seems to be,
I'm a replica, I'm a replica
Empty shell inside of me
I'm not myself, I'm a replica of me...

=ord loh!=

2008-11-11T08:50:00.000-08:00

well if i dont blog about this tonight i probably will regret my entire life.

today..... is the 11th of November, 2008.
22mths has passed. ever since the counter below started from 561 days...

ORD LOH!!!!!

its been a long way, from being a commando recruit... to a dropout (oops)... then to becoming a technician. different lives, but we live on for still the same purpose. defending the nation is besides the point, cause thats a duty.

but the issue here is...

ORD LOH!!!!!

was met with a stumbling block when cheehui and myself, both commando lobsters, wanted to get our final clearance. but thanks to our OC, who was taking a tactical break from conference (oops oops), decisively settled it for us. and we were on our way to see our lovely beautiful pinkie. but still the most beautiful one is delia hehe. =p

met her shortly after meeting miss pinkie. went to eat at some ulu ice cream store called island creamery. very shiok, but i got cheated cause the whole damn building didnt have a single atm. i had to resort to digging out from gama-chan =[

see how he's suffering from hunger! quick everyone, feed him!

the first time pinkie meets greenie. lol.

visited gourmet east and shimei east kitchen with delia, ghaz, mad, and weiying. crap, even though i saw so many pengkang stalls on tv in that 省钱王 show on channel 8, i didnt see ANY AT ALL. i had to poke my nose into an office to finally find one overpriced catering company. oh well.

spent the late afternoon at kallang leisure. took a few photos of course. and delia got spurred on to learn driving!

nice manicure!
my new ride! for 4.5days at least. mitsubishi colt! i seem to become a mitsu fan already. haha. this model is good. 300km with only half tank. and it costs only 50 bucks to fill up >3/4 tank.

finally, i want to say...

ORD LOH!!!!!!

=hell-o-ween=

2008-10-31T07:17:00.000-07:00

it is this night again, when ghouls, vampires, princess fairies and kinky undies roam the streets for candy. its hell-o-ween.. (kinda makes me remember of that blast of a concert a few months ago)
~~

its already 10 days to my ORD, and though i felt i have achieved much in most aspects of my life, i felt that my thinking really has and will continue to grow up. and of course i will grow up as a person. from learning different virtues, to knowing when to dodge incoming arrows.

after talking and meeting to many people in the course of ns, i have learnt much. all that pursuit for top class personality and intelligence, is it worth fighting for? i mean, ive seen many who end up living satisfying lives even though they do not come from the 'well-bred' kind of life. then again, i realise that everyone would have a path to take, and we would choose it on our own. it isnt about making the riches, or having 400 virgin wives, nor reaching paradise. its about being SATISFIED.

obviously someone who's about to get out of my life right now isnt satisfied with anything i do. too bad, like it or not he still will only see me for another week. or maybe less i hope.
~~~

almighty, do you hear me?

im afraid and tensed up because you didnt reply my previous letter. i get very uptight everytime things dont go my way. my subordinates, especially the senior ones, arent making things easy for me too. one is overweight and only floats around, but the other one hit the last straw. he's incorrigible! just because he is going to ORD in less than 2 weeks, he gives me rubbish! always trying to skive! and he thinks he's so damn smarter than me. i hate it when people deny that im the greatest leader around. even the higher ups dont seem to agree with me on that aspect. i feel stressed and depressed. so i guess the only way out right now is to vent all my frustration and anger at him, so that he can have a taste of my wrath. hahahaha! i've already overworked him anyway, giving him a 3 man job. but who cares, im the boss! please reply my call soon almighty. fanks!

=the only ynot i respect is iron man=

2008-10-22T08:45:00.000-07:00

changed my skin, thought the previous one got kinda boring and screwed up. noticed how your cursor will disappear? but anyway, looking at domokun always sorts of cheer me up with some cheap but profound humor.
~~
(the following is purely fictional, and any resemblance to the living or dead is purely coincidental)

dear almighty,

i have a problem. i'm nowhere near youthful anymore, at 30. i'm still single, and through years of means and ways, i still find no solace in any girl. i still live with my mother and sister in a single flat apartment, and im afraid that she scolds me for not cleaning my room and helping out with housework, so i must go home punctually to do my share promptly.

i've not been really successful at work either. my interpersonal relationships with my subordinates are uptight at best. i want my superiors to credit and appreciate me, but i dont know how they feel about me. i tend to stress out easily over mediocre performance, because i want the best for myself and only myself. it gets to a level of ridicule, and everyone seems to hate me for it. i subconsiously pass this stress and panic to everyone around me, especially those that clear the most shit for me. some can manage to work as per se, but there are those that somehow decrease in performance. i hate it when other people cant take high levels of stress as good as me.

so please help me, i need to change everyone around me so that they dont do stupid things like taking medical leaves or being blur, and make me stressed out so often. also please help me extend my contract, because although i say i dont want it, i must have it, because i cant do shit outside of where i work now. please please, fanks!

=clarke quay chronicles=

2008-10-10T22:11:00.000-07:00

went to clarke quay recently, and being a swakoo person that i am, i didnt realise how much it has changed. i know of the new 'the central' mall, but i didnt know how many nice pubs and restaurants there were! wow, i must really explore once i get out of ns. 29 more days!

started the day off with lunch at waraku. ah dont try the soup pastas. they taste weird. but the pastas aint the only thing tasty in the restaurant ;)

after which we went around walking the area, and of course snapping!

help help! the statue is falling!

lampposts are very good props of photography. especially coming from a noob like me. haha

after which we went to her stylist for a trim. looks good after that =]

ah another rare moment. you never see me eating seafood except the occasional fish and chips. well, heres the occasion. i still prefer the 'best fish and chips' over the 'new york fish and chips' though.
wah!

after going to the esplanade soooo many times, i did not realise that theres actually a roof terrace zz. -.- so finally, we ended the day there. good place for photos though i'd wish we had better gear to take better night photos. block cameras are very lousy in night mode.

=relax la=

2008-10-05T08:56:00.000-07:00

with 36 days to go, there is little time for rejoice, or perhaps remorse. while most people say its a waste of time ( i counted down from 500++ days mind you), i'd say it really teaches you things beyond avoiding arrows and acting like a wimp.

had to grab some fresh air lately, or else it isnt very healthy staying on antibiotics and getting cooped up at home. hence, visited hortpark! though it almost didnt go on in the morning, i did enjoy the day after all =]

the first time i got out ever since that stupid pain in the ass came about.
she never fails to look great in pictures =]
see what i mean?

flowers flowers!
~~~~

had to check out the motorshow too, even though everyone's been saying it aint that fantastic. well, it wasnt, though there were just a few cars i HAD to take pictures of.

like the nissan GTR!
and the 350Z fairlady roadster!
but well the most important part of the picture is still her =D
when are you getting your licence ms cordee?
ah i can keep on dreaming about owning a car now haha.

=anal abscess=

2008-09-30T10:04:00.000-07:00

right. in case anyone still hasnt known what has been causing my hiatus, its this damn fuck of a condition called a "perianal abscess". basically, an abscess is a bloody (literally too) big pimple filled with bacterial infection under your skin. an anal abscess... well you should know. it was a big pain in MY ass. you can all go wiki about it. tomorrow ill be going for the procedure of draining everything out.. gonna be out for a week, which could be good and bad.. judging by the fact that theres rarely anyone around who can get things done in camp. then again, too many things happened at a go this 2nd half of the year.. i could use some prolonged shut-eye. especially this condition.. i havent slept well for 4 days for it. imagine something playing 1/16 double bass pedals on your ass at night while you sleep.

well from now onwards, i condemn polyclinic GPs and MOs, cause other than gg for medical reviews and reviews and getting status slips from them, theres nothing much they can do for me, much less fix something that could have been fixed so long ago. took me (mum actually) 100 odd smackers to cure my pain in the ass.

and my muscles, however minute they were before i fell sick with diarrhea after eating the pita bread from geylang serai's pasar malam, are even more minute now. i cant even carry delia =[ time to work out!

=Sickness In Segregation=

2008-09-20T23:19:00.000-07:00

initially i wanted to just put off this post. but right now, i am suddenly fueled to type this out. even though im somehow quite weak in the head already.

though it is quite 'normal' for the elder one in the house to take charge as he/she usually knows more as to what is going on, there is often this 'commander' that originates from the lower ranks of the household. its not really nice to have a hierarchy within the same level, but then again, it cant be helped.
if you hate men so much, theres always the option of being a lesbian. its more socially acceptable nowadays. not that i have any bias against or towards them.

and everyone seem to have this fallacy that stay-out personnel in the armed forces have the best of lives in the force; canteen food, easy job, can go home everyday, zero stress! on the contary, i dare say that the lives are in fact worse than those of the combatants. it is the combatants that make up the army, but its the logisticians that keep it together! so we are actually in a sense, 'working' already. who's the stressful one now? with all the irksome nagging it will put off just about anyone who's about to help out in the housework, and not because 'he is expected to.' the more you expect something out of someone the more you will not get it.

please stop thinking that everything 'undesirable' in your own point of view originates from who i date, because its not like we can pass over anything like in chinese kung fu movies.

and for everyone's own good, please take note of what you eat from this year's hari raya pasar malam. it has already claimed a victim, less his life. lol.

behind blue eyes

2008-09-20T06:37:00.000-07:00

the most decent live shot as to what i can find so yea. feat Bryan Adams. Pete Townshend is just standing nearby.

No one knows what its like
To be the bad man
To be the sad man
Behind blue eyes

No one knows what its like
To be hated
To be fated
To telling only lies

But my dreams
They arent as empty
As my conscience seems to be

I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
Thats never free

No one knows what its like
To feel these feelings
Like I do
And I blame you

No one bites back as hard
On their anger
None of my pain and woe
Can show through

But my dreams
They arent as empty
As my conscience seems to be

I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
Thats never free

When my fist clenches, crack it open
Before I use it and lose my cool
When I smile, tell me some bad news
Before I laugh and act like a fool

If I swallow anything evil
Put your finger down my throat
If I shiver, please give me a blanket
Keep me warm, let me wear your coat

No one knows what its like
To be the bad man
To be the sad man
Behind blue eyes

=wall.e=

2008-09-13T19:01:00.000-07:00

watched wall.e yesterday.. must say that many may miss the subliminal messages that may exist in the movie. this was one movie that moved me to tears since many before, as i see what extent two people(robots) are willing to do for each other. and the strange ways a guy can tell a girl he likes her hahahahaha *coughkungfupandacough* it also portrays 'love' not only between two individuals, but also on a macro-scale, Ala for all human beings.

some things that's happening recently has come to make me feel like I'm a 2Nd class citizen. maybe its all my wistful thinking, though things look otherwise in more ways than one.

=shadows in the flame=

2008-09-10T10:19:00.000-07:00

As the day begins to fade
Eventide's when I'm afraid
I'll never know if you appear
But my senses say you're near

In the dark when I write
Telling fortunes for my life
I'm sitting here by candle flame
When will you arrive again

=model answer=

2008-09-03T17:32:00.000-07:00

today's the 2nd day since mum entered SGH early on wednesday morning for her scheduled operation.. and with totally NO help around the house, its quite tiring trying to make sure everything's orderly... though nothing is right now.

now that i kind of cleared myself of having any trace of autism in me, looking back i wonder why have i displayed such behavior that led me to think i was.

from a series of events and decisions yesterday, peppered with some from the more distant past, i have thought, is there a 'model answer' to everything?

somehow humans think theres a sure-fire way to do everything, like how to get 6 points for O levels, how to complete a video game, how to date a girl, how to make her reach an orgasm, how to play music properly, blah blah the list goes on and on.

kinda set thinking by phrases said by alot of people, like 'do get this, you MUST do this this that that...' and the likes.

but what if we dont have that "MUST"? then have we become 'have-nots'? is there only space for one method, one way-of-life, and one perspective in reality?

model answers are only there because people said so. take the tshirt for example. it was usually worn as an innershirt for people like the old'school soldiers from the US-A. as they have the habit of wearing it out just like that during recreation, some catch on to the trend saying that its cool and now, we have tshirts as main tops. if they were wearing quilts out, we would all be scottish by now.

so i have come to realised that we all have our own model answers to whatever we think or do. alot of successful individuals everywhere have their own ways of doing what they do, just that we merely copied onto their methods and called it 'the model answer.'
~~
A tout le monde (To everybody)
A tout mes amis (To all my friends)
Je vous aime (I love you)
Je dois partir (I must leave)
These are the last words
I'll ever speak
And they'll set me free

=old and alone?=

2008-08-25T08:41:00.000-07:00

'Was on the way home from sending cordee back to her place when i saw this old man on the LRT sitting opposite me. immediately when i looked at him, i felt a great sense of grief, and solitude coming out from him. then i thought, "he should be about 70, what is he doing out all alone, dressed so smart with pressed shirt and pants, with leather shoes?"

whats more, i noticed the two wedding bands made of pure gold. i heard somewhere that people sometimes wear the ring of their moved-on spouse with them. so yea, that was the first impression he gave me. whats more theres that soulful expression on his face. almost made me want to go up to him to ask about his life story.

oh well, will i end up like that 40, even 50 years down the road? despite coming a long way, i have no one to continue it with me? i hope not, for i have her now. as what they always say, seize the day!

may you be well, old uncle. =]

=as we gazed upon stardust=

2008-08-23T22:58:00.000-07:00

after a good day's out with cordee, we went to check out the fireworks festival at the floating platform. i managed to get two tickets for that after a long story, but decided to give mum a good time there instead. so, we stood just beside the area at the bay and waited....

and waited...

and waited...

while instead of fireworks, they had fireACTS that lasted a good hour. cant comment on them much cause all i saw were small embers floating about the dark.

but as promised, the fireworks display came at about 2115-2130. no amount of pictures can express how beautiful were they, no matter how pro your assumed photography skills may be.
still, ill show some pictures i took ba. =]

=what does your name mean=

2008-08-20T05:22:00.000-07:00

What Yue Han Means

You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in.

You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising.

You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.

You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way.

And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life.

You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.

You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.

At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.

Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.

Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.

You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.

You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.

You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.

You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

=elysian fields=

2008-08-16T10:36:00.000-07:00

Elysian Fields
We are storming the heavens
Elysian Fields
We raise the swords and shields
Elysian Fields
We ascend to our destiny
Elysian Fields
To the Elysian Fields

=48th turns sweet revenge=

2008-08-15T05:18:00.000-07:00

"Singapore ends 48-year Olympic medal drought"

went the headlines just about everywhere on the Internet news websites.

at about 6plus this evening, 'was at wisma walking around after sending cordee to the train station. a big crowd was at this al'fresco restaurant, so being the usual mr.kaypo, i went to take a look. just in a nick of time, i saw Feng Tianwei of the Singapore Women Table Tennis Team (SWTTT, similarly aggressive name indeed lol) finish off Park Mi-young of South Korea, and as a result, qualify the team for the finals against either HK or China. this means they guarantee themselves a medal. and become the next Olympic medalists from SG after tan howe liang in 1960. proud of you ladies =]
~~~~~~

went to MS with cordee today. had pretty much a rough day with customer service cause we didnt get what we expected to get. first it was Creative, who said that they can't verify the problem on the spot regarding Cordee's zen stone plus' ridiculous battery life. (note Creative store behind left)
but before that, we HAD to catch swensens' executive lunch as the timing was right. so yea i HAD to had the designer ice cream lol. tried some new macaroni baked pasta stuff.
my favourite drink out of the home. ice lemon tea~

a place of past memories... and maybe the future? hehe.

I WAS WAITING FOR THIS ALL DAY LONG!!
so much that i had to pose with it~!~!

went to paragon's m1 CSC to find out why poor cordee was charged 16 bucks for calls mysteriously. came to light that it was carried over from her previous bill's excess, which wasnt explained AT ALL from the CSO at compass point's m1 shop. well well well... btw, bought cordee her first garment gift lol.

while waiting for her at the salon this noon, i managed to read a part of that 'three teachings' book by tenzin palmo, a very advanced English (yea, ang moh!) Nun. she wrote something about ' making others miserable just because they made you miserable, will only serve to make you even more miserable', or somewhere along that line. so the idea would be to wish everyone 'may you be well and happy'. if they dont want to listen to you, thats karma for them already. =] good night!

=bleh part1=

2008-08-11T07:56:00.000-07:00

as the days come closer towards that blessed day when im reunited with my favorite PINK item, im starting to procrastinate more and more regarding this blog, probably just reminiscing the moments of my 'eventful' national service life. shall not reveal too much details, i dont want to spoil my ORD...
~~
Are you ready for the best damn ride of your life?
Give me a "HELL" give me a "YEAH"
Stand up right now!
~~

have you watched the two performances over the weekend? what a vast difference, i must say. apart from the fact that one is based on splurging-as-much-money-to-show-off-my-godlyness and the other is based on a military parade ceremony, you can tell that the chinese mean it when they say they'll make the best olympics ceremony there ever was. from the vast number of performers ( about 13000 altogether? omg!) to the extravagance on the fireworks, they REALLY mean it.

not that im saying ndp is bad, its fabulous this year. good job! and enjoy your manymany OFFs lol!
~~

they say the housewife mum should be paid like a few hundred thousands annually for all the 'jobs' she performs on the course of her daily activities. i think the boyfriend should also be like that. then again. emotional gratification is good enough for me =]

to py:
its been a great month together, and i really hope we would last =]

=prophecy=

2008-07-28T05:25:00.000-07:00

I am the darkness
Born out of light
I am the force the fire
That burns here tonight

Bringing the future
To all mankind
Guider of life - of death
The dight of the blind

Your future lies within my eyes
What i predict will terrify
I can't control what comes to be
From the past to the present to eternity

I am Nostradamus
Do you believe
I am Nostradamus
That i conceive

Master of chaos
Anger and rage
I hold the key
My presence will unlock the cage
I am your witness
The one who can tell
Bearing the sword - the shield
To your heaven from hell

As i unfold the mystery
I change the course of history
With premonitions from the void
Will you live, will you die
Will your worlds collide

I am Nostradamus
The hand of fate
I am Nostradamus
With love and hate

Lost in this vortex
The mystery begins
Will you be victim
Saved from your sins
Time is illusion
Trapped in the skies
Destiny's calling
Hear from my eyes

Many years ago a boy was born
A boy with a gift
A gift that would be the envy of all mankind
To see what no other could - great visions
of the future
Or would a curse be bestowed on the boy
The boy whose name was Nostradamus,
damus, damus. Damus, damus, damus

I am Nostradamus
Do not forsake
I am Nostradamus
Your life's at stake

I am Nostradamus
The lightning rod
I am Nostradamus
The voice of God

Celestial comets
Reign towards earth
Alchemy's tempest
Predicting your worth
Pray for deliverence
Escape if you can
For i have borne witness
To the purging of man.

=lancer EX=

2008-07-24T09:02:00.000-07:00

Mitsubishi evo10 in my frontyard? omg?
no la, lancer EX only. haha

very good car to drive, minus the slightly petrol-guzzling characteristics. response was not bad, both steering and gas. though it didnt feel like a sports car... too heavy i guess.

went out with delia on the first day (tues) whilst shuttling to SGH to do my nerve diagnostic test. after more than a year after i first reported sick for the numb tricep, i finally did the test for it, and I ALREADY HEALED, so the results were NORMAL. damn the queue.

so yeah we had a great time driving around places like town, then around her north east area, and partially getting lost.. zz. hougang mall has totally changed anw. the last time i been there was like.. when i was still in MJC lifesaving? still remember that picture with weird stains on my shirt.

on the 2nd day, started the day with XL at NTU's scholar camp. some water event where we basically were lifeguards for 2-odd hours. together with some grumpy pool attendant-cum-lifeguard. sheesh.

ended the 2nd day with a date with delia of course. got lost on the way to SIM (again) and went to vivo to eat Han's. (zz should have gone to breeks man) we wanted to go atop mount faber to catch the sunset. but alas, stupid dark clouds in the way. must be leftover from ystd's rain. AND MY BLOODY CAMERA RAN OUT OF BATT. so yea i would have to wait another time to catch it already.

watch out for more upcoming posts then. i can feel my life's gonna be slightly more exciting =p

=dismembered metal=

2008-07-14T08:19:00.000-07:00

yesterday is probably the first underground metal concert ive ever attended, since i unwittingly missed the Mayhem one a while ago. yesterday's band was one called 'dismember', with a rather fierce band logo to go along. 's been a while since i last met wilfred and ben. so yea, queensway's next! lol.

well as you may have noticed, yes, my relationship with mb has ended. lots of stories and excuses and whatsoever can be given and fabricated, but thats my business, not yours.

3odd more months to ORD, its time to make a difference in myself, before i go off. it may not be the best workplace in the world, but i certainly dont hate it.

=paradise lost=

2008-07-09T07:59:00.000-07:00

By Symphony X

In the cold misty morning
Gleaming rays awake the dawn
Here I stand, a stranger in this land
Does your conscience betray you?
Falling from grace
Feel the sun on my face
Does desire still hold true?

Mystified by her beauty
Does the hunter pity his pray
Under starless skies
All love must die, and fade way

Take my hand, divine or damned
Make a stand, seize the day
Oh, yours or mine, damned of divine
Draw the line, come what may

Looking down from ethereal skies
Silent crystalline tears I cry
For all must say their last goodbye
To Paradise...

My yearning is silenced by angelic skin of white
Love conquers all though heaven's fall
This fateful night

Oh, yours or mine, damned of divine
Draw the line, serpentine

Love is a tragedy
All that I have, all that I'll ever need
Is right here inside
Let the winds of freedom be my guide

Looking down from ethereal skies
Silent crystalline tears I cry
For all must say their last goodbye
To Paradise...

Looking down from ethereal skies
Silent crystalline tears I cry
For all must say their last goodbye
To Paradise...
Say goodbye, goodbye, horror.

(solo)

So I've cheated and I've lied
Been the victim of foolish pride
And I've begged and I've crawled
And I've battled it and bled for it all
Now I'll savor the downfall
Of Paradise..

(x3)
Looking down from ethereal skies
Silent crystalline tears I cry
For all will say their last goodbye
To Paradise...

=responsible blogging=

2008-06-25T07:43:00.000-07:00

recently an acquaintance of mine received official punishment for irresponsible blogging. its something thats not taken lightly in this country, given the fact that the internet is a very fragile realm where either growth and love is nurtured, or hate and spite are spawned.

as the saying goes, "君子一言既出，驷马难追". (the words of the gentleman when spoken, is difficult to recall, like a fine steed". its not as if we're totally forbidden to talk about the army. i mean, the army does impart an average (self-motivated) soldier responsibility, many communication, as well as management skills. of course that comes with plenty of manual labor, deadlines and unfortunately for some, extra duties.

but as in the interest for the country and the armed forces, we are bound by the official secrets act to safeguard any classified information that we would definitely come across in the course of work, especially someone from the service vocations like me. since by common sense, we do more paperwork than combatants.

so, while we want to share our experiences as well as our opinions regarding the armed forces, the onus would definitely be on the servicemen to not leak out stuff that we shouldnt tell. just like how anyone with common sense would not blog about his/her daily private self-gratification rituals. and of course, as shown in various previous incidents of disciplinary lapses, the armed forces has a system flow for which servicemen can air their grievances, as well as seek counselling guidances should they have any personal conflicts with the organisation and its members. (this should have been published in either in a newspaper report, or a forum response towards a previous incident of disciplinary lapse involving a high-profile serviceman)

moral of the story: whatever you do or say, be prepared to eat it back.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~*~*~*~*~*~*~~~~~~~~~~~~

well i also have to thank meibao for buying me the puma belt sometime ago at rafflescity puma boutique, which i truly adore. lol been long since i got a gift from her ba =x

anw talk about irresponsible blogging, i dont get why people find so much gratification in giving nonproductive comments on tagboards. if typing words into cyberspace lets you feel avenged over some conflict in real life, i wish you all the best!

=slack again lah=

2008-06-22T08:31:00.000-07:00

wow its been like, NOT a while since i last talked about my nuances to the black spaces of the universe.
(btw, does anyone has a good blogskin to use? this one's getting kinda laggy already due to the large amount of .jpgs)

after tonnes of paperworks and lots of dirty hands, i finally got my work straightened out. which kinds of reflects that NS is actually a good place to learn about paperwork procedures, office politics as well as the importance of canteen breaks.

one of the units my section is supporting had their new botak recruits recently. looking back at the days where even the OOC had to deal with the feral rage coming from the WSM and OC, who were (and still are, for the record) close to the point of being demonic, be in their temper, way-of-life and as well as their sheer physical prowess. not to mention eating close to 30 combat ration packets during those 9 'tekong drift' days. looking at my ORD counter, ive certainly come a long way, and its not THAT long left before i can move on.

apart of office politics, a good part of our lives of non-governmental politics would revolve around our social circle, be it far apart, or your close ones. long story, shall not elaborate unless u ask.

social-wise, i got this darn feeling that im sociophobic to some extent =/

anw right now im addicted to patapon. lol. pink psp combined with cute catchy game (though its about fighting) how sissy can that get?! ftr, im heterosexual. zzz

due to the many events that happened in may and june, im short of pools to actually embark on fulfilling dates, since even though we dont have to buy presents, even spiritually-satisfying dates in singapore will set you back some dough. and by doing nothing we all will become senile-citizens when we grow up.

=slack lah=

2008-06-07T21:25:00.000-07:00

well enough of being a slacker, lets update myself over what have i done lately.

went to vivo yesterday for a long-awaited return visit to marsche. before that i was at the main entrance on ground level where there was this event going on. apparently it was the "under no roof" event whereby lucky spoilt brats get to build flimsy bashas with cardboard, PVC pipes and the likes. then they would sleep in their masterpiece under all the weather (complete with protective plastic film and free mineral water) over the night (or two).

somehow i think this whole event is meaningless. has anyone actually witnessed what totally goes on in a vagrant's life? usually when we see one its only for like, 3 seconds? 10secs if he decides to pester you for some dough. the city is his jungle, and hes the sole survivor out of it. so if you ask me, living in the open with cardboard boxes and plastic films dont really make the cut.

even army boys are better off than vagrants. though you say we're in the jungle with the absence of civilisation, we get decent gear, and dont have to worry about ration, water or welfare. for them, anything's game.
~

=sex and the city=

2008-06-01T06:55:00.000-07:00

-financial difficulties-

as a NSF, especially a service side soldier who gets to stay out at that, often finds himself in severe financial situations due to many different reasons. given the rising cost of every darn fucking thing like transport, food and whatnots, the service NSF usually struggles to cope. a lance corporal like me gets 440 (this info can be obtained through other online databases) and a good 25% goes towards transport. ow? doing some maths, a soldier who stays in camp gets fed 15 bucks of food a day. thats an avg of 300 bucks per month. so our allowance is actually spent on food and concession passes. not that my job allows me to stay in, i am required to be mobile. thats besides the point anyway. no one wants to stay in at the camp i work in =/

but in any case, as adrian pang puts it at a deal-or-no-deal episode, NSFs are cheap and *hopefully*nice.

-movie-
went to watch the coveted sex and the city movie today. was pretty much of the continuation of the last episode of the last season which ended quite some time ago. to sum it all up becoz its getting quite late already. GO WATCH THE DAMN MOVIE. ITS NICE.

=mabell's 19=

2008-05-25T02:42:00.000-07:00

well due to multiple agenda mishaps as well as financial shortages i didnt get to spend mabell's 19th birthday the way it should, but yea i will confirm make up for it

got a (in mabell's own words) LKK 92' Nissan Sunny for the weekend. except for a rather *minor* scratch on the rear left bumper due to me driving into my own gate, nth much happened. FINALLY convinced my mum that i can drive zzz. driving test doesnt end at the driving school, theres still the parent(s) test.

fetched her to NUS for some chem-engineering talk, but alas, we couldnt find the place, partially cause she forgot to bring the invitation letter zzz. by the time we found it, we were like an hour late so aiya wtf, just move on lor.

then off we went to Singapore flyer! parking there is SUPER EX btw. 2 hrs cost $3.5 we spent some time shopping (which was basically 2 storeys of roundabouts of SUPER EX stuff. a bangle that costs like 30 bucks. just coz its 'first-class 'acrylic' with 'kimono fabric' embedded inside e plastic cast)

took some photos at the yakult forest thingy. which was like so below the ride itself. so scary!

well due to the lack of choices at pre-dinner timing i had no choice but to eat popeyes =/ thats why i said ill make it up.

oh well. watch this space for the make-up birthday. lol!

=why men marry bitches=

2008-05-16T02:42:00.000-07:00

'was a title i saw while out for a lunch date with bao-ey at times bookstore @PS. then again, one of the titles i glanced had to do with shopping. huh. but anw, watch this space for her birthday surprise!

girls, makeup and clothes (throw in shoes as a bonus) all rhyme like 'mary had a little lamb' and the relationship is as fresh as the next Indiana Jones movie. its like a delicate polygonal chemical equation that would result in euphoria. the catalyst would be the element called 'boyfriend'. the mid-way product would then be named 'money'.

if the catalyst is not in sufficient exposure, the reaction will undergo a different reaction pathway that is highly exothermic and will lead to combustion of any matter in the immediate vicinity.
~~~~~

=i am blood type AB=

2008-05-11T03:48:00.000-07:00

im so beginning to think this is so true...
(click on image to enlarge.)

=absence makes you blonder=

2008-05-05T05:29:00.000-07:00

suddenly ive been missing for like what, a week? coincidentally the day i came back online was shut-down day. zzz. its more like shut-down week for me.

well my missing-in-action-ness revolves around acts of procrastination and insincerity coming from the person who's paying the bills, resulting in the Internet connection as well as cable vision being disrupted. but anyway thats a past now so i shall forget about it.

my dear mabell got into the course she wanted so dearly, chemical engineering @NUS. cheers for her and her ALMOST perfect score. =p

well as for me, look below and you will see where will i go in the end. XL says i shd take a double degree. oh manxzzzxx im confused again T_T

=the correct major?=

2008-05-04T23:00:00.000-07:00

WHAT MAJOR IS RIGHT FOR YOU?
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You scored as Biology/Chemistry/Geology

You should strongly consider majoring (or minoring) in Biology, Chemistry, Geology, or related majors (e.g., Biochemistry, Environmental Science, Forestry, Fisheries and Wildlife, Genetics, Marine Biology, Zoology).

It is possible that the best major for you is your 2nd, 3rd, or even 5th listed category, so be sure to consider ALL majors in your OTHER high scoring categories (below). You may score high in a category you didnt think you would--it is possible that a great major for you is something you once dismissed as not for you. The right major for you will be something 1) you love and enjoy and 2) are really great at it.

Consider adding a minor or double majoring to make yourself standout and to combine your interests. Please post your results in your myspace/blog/journal.

Biology/Chemistry/Geology

94%

Psychology/Sociology

81%

Education/Counseling

75%

Accounting/Finance/Marketing

69%

English/Journalism/Comm

69%

HR/BusinessManagement

63%

Physics/Engineering/Computer

63%

French/Spanish/OtherLanguage

63%

Visual&PerformingArts

56%

Nursing/AthleticTraining/Health

50%

Mathematics/Statistics

44%

PoliticalScience/Philosophy

38%

Religion/Theology

38%

History/Anthropology/LiberalArts

31%

=tp prequel=

2008-04-29T08:00:00.000-07:00

except for an immediate failure which im not proud of at all (rolling off slope cause the damn gas pedal had some weird freeplay), i HOPE im fine for tomorrow.

darn, im not even so nervous for a levels. (i was nervous about the results, not the papers)
maybe, it could be the first step towards proving that i, after so long, finally,
have grown up. and become an uncle officially. zz.

=jap food siao=

2008-04-25T07:36:00.000-07:00

apart from procrastinating (oops..) and as well as the interruption towards my daily agendas, it has come to my attention that i had failed to....

show how much food meibao and myself were enjoying!

esp jap food, which happens to be her favorite...

i thought its supposed to be korean?!
~~
Shokudo Food Bazaar

this was a little while ago... but nonetheless it was my maiden voyage down to this place dubbed 'the japanese marsche'. cant compare the two of them, cause for one, marsche makes better roast meat, while on the other hand, shokudo has great variety of food at great prices too! but nonetheless...

THEY MAKE GREAT ROSTIS!

and tempura shitake mushrooms... and many more la. theres too many to mention. must tries are the omelette, tempura, ramen and of course crepe and ice cream!! A typical 2-person meal would cost about say, 30 bucks? thats for 2 average-appetite people.
~~
Ajitei @ Plaza Singapura

well this was pretty recent... cause she wanted to eat at ajitei, for not being able to despite working there for so long =x
it was kinda good, much more than what i expected...

this was the oyster/scallop/clam/forgot spaghetti that she enjoyed so much, till she wanted to cajole me into eating one of them wth!
not to mention my all time favorite, the age-dashi tofu, which happens to be buried in the flurry of fish flakes and carrot paste. must try.
and the classic jap curry katsu don omu rice. really heavenly, the curry was not over-starchy, but it still made me full~
and of course, the macha (green tea) flavored sundae. (which she wanted SOOOO much after some protest from me!) which didnt turn out too well, as personally i didnt get along well with the taste initially. though it was still nice nontheless la! see the look on her face zz.
~~~

and so, pls stay tuned for more adventures with meibao and fishy! anniversary coming up next!

pls get well soon darling =[

=prologue=

2008-04-24T08:00:00.000-07:00

Prologue:

When the war of the beasts brings about the world's end,
The goddess descends from the sky

Wings of light and dark spread afar,
She guides us to bliss, her gift everlasting...

=act 5=

2008-04-19T23:15:00.000-07:00

Act V:

Dreams of the morrow hath shattered soul
Pride is Lost.
Wings stripped away, the end is nigh
Such is... the fate of a monster.

Even if the morrow is barren of promises,
nothing shall forestall my return.
If this world seeks my destruction...
... It goes with Me

=act 4=

2008-04-18T20:40:00.000-07:00

Act IV:

There is no hate, only joy
For you are beloved by the goddess.
Hero of the Dawn, Healer of Worlds.

Three friends go into battle
One is captured,
One flies away,
the one that is left becomes a hero.
If we were to enact it,
would I be the one to play the hero,
Or would You?
Indeed
After all, your glory should have been mine.

My Friend, the fates are cruel
There are no dreams, no honour remains.
The arrow has left the bow of the goddess.

My Soul corrupted by vengeance,
Hath endures torment,
To find the end of the journey in my own salvation.
And Your eternal slumber.

Now what i want most...
is the 'Gift of the Goddess'...

=act 3=

2008-04-18T08:12:00.000-07:00

Act III:

As the war sends the world hurtling towards destruction
The prisoner departs with his newfound love
And embarks on a new journey.

He is guided by hope that the gift will bring bliss
And the oath that he swore to his friends.

Though no oath is shared between the lovers,
In thier hearts they know they will meet again.

=act 2=

2008-04-17T06:54:00.000-07:00

Act II:

My Friend, your desire
Is the bringer of life, the gift of the goddess.
Legend shall speak of sacrifice at worlds end.
The wind sails over the water's surface
Quietly, but surely...

=loveless act I=

2008-04-16T05:05:00.000-07:00

Act I:

Infinite in mystery is the gift of the goddess
We seek it thus, and take to the sky.
Ripples form on the water's surface
The wandering soul knows no rest.

=buttons=

2008-04-12T01:48:00.000-07:00

heres an interesting question posed to me:

why are the buttons on clothes meant for girls and guys on different sides? (i.e. guys have the buttons on the right side, the girls, left.)

=balls to you, recruit=

2008-04-05T08:35:00.000-07:00

When I was just a chao recruit,
I asked my sergeant, what will I be?
Will I be PC? Will I be 3SG?
Here's what he said to me.

Balls to you, recruit,
This is not your father's army,
Your future's not yours to see,
Sign extra for me.

~~~~~~~~
I now know how the song ends.

Balls to you, CPL,
This is not your father's army,
Not happy don't ORD,
Wait inside DB.

=afterlife=

2008-04-04T07:06:00.000-07:00

=the big 2 to the 0=

2008-04-01T20:15:00.000-07:00

i had intended to exit teenage and into 'adulthood' unnoticed but still,

thanks mum dad sis mabell kumlong stephie liyi diane michelle kete yingying cheryl justin peiyan kokwai yunting jiaying shawnwee and alphonsus . no particular order just that alphonsus will be last always. lol!

but damn, still no budget angpao for me. T_T

=iphone country code bug=

2008-03-21T06:39:00.000-07:00

just in case someone needs it cause a few friends already asked me for it zzz

http://forums.vr-zone.com/showthread.php?t=243680

=belated rantings=

2008-03-19T03:24:00.000-07:00

after countless days of procrastinating i finally, have come out the effort to actually type this out, apart from changing the blogskin after more than half a year.

in a few words, i can say that the world in 2008 so far sucks.

first of all, in nearly 10 years the US$ has dropped to an all low of 1.374 (approx) and the future looks bleak. thanks to housing mortgages fall-outs and other factors offsets like fed reserves interest rates being cut and oil prices soaring like eagles flying free, wall street faces a calamity short of a recession. either its time to just sit it out, or invest in USD right now. or else if the US citizens decide to cash out on all their pensions, the white house is screwed man. lol.
~~
this is something ive asked around for my friends' views, and we generally have the a consensus over these issues.

another thing close to our hearts, especially people who are gonna get licenses, and in turn wheels soon. no offence to anyone here, but in recent years, has anyone realized that the revenue generated from land transport has ballooned. its as good as saying that part of the money we forked out to pay for the ERP charges, road tax blah blah has been utilized to build EVEN MORE ERP gantries to collect even more revenue out of motorists. although transport minister Raymond Lim said that "ERP is necessary", and highlighting the comparison between London's transport congestion management scheme, it still remains a stark fact that ERP is not the definite issue to road congestion. if this trend carries on, in the next 20 years or so we will have ERP gantries situated right outside our front yards, and we have to bite our cashcards and go under the gantries while we get charged a small fee to exit our homes. after so much talk to improve our public transport system, i fail to get a seat on the MRT more than 70% of the time even though sometimes i start my ride at the terminal stations. this applies for buses as well. it may not be financially sustainable to provide buses that only ferry such small capacity, but being squished like sardines isnt the way. personally i hope to see more short term improvements, and more extensive long-term plans instead of just giving a fancy name for a goal in the not-so-long future.

and i have i mentioned that transport fares are increasing too quickly these days? its not like we see the money being used for improving the system, except for building fancy MRT 'exchange' areas around every single station i can think of.

the most recent piss-off that tingles lots of frustration out of the general population is the new "law" that cabs were not allowed to stop ANYWHERE else in CBD other than taxi stands. half a month into the rule which started its effect on 1st march 2008, it received pretty extreme disdain from commuters, businesses, and cabbies alike. lots of new issues popped out, like severe drop in business from hotels due to the lack of taxi stands, taxi being no more than a private bus, and also stuff like being ignorant of the rule. punishment for flouting? 3 DIPS points and 100 smackers smacked on you.

LTA cited in news releases that the move is to "improve the safety of commuters, taxi drivers and other road users as it will reduce the number of taxis driving into bus lanes to pick up passengers or indiscriminately stopping along the roads and disrupting the flow of traffic. This way, public buses which carry more passengers will enjoy a smoother and faster journey."

heres the irony: when the proposed rule first surfaced,
Mr Yang Ban Seng, CEO of ComfortDelGro's Taxi Business, said, "The move to mandate that taxi passengers can only be picked up or alighted at taxi stands, taxi stops and building driveways in the CBD is a good one and we are supportive of it. In fact, we have been working with LTA and our Taxi Association to address implementation issues of concern to our taxi drivers

Mr Foo Chi Yong, Chairman of Premier Taxi Operators' Association, said, "We are fully supportive of LTA's measures to improve taxi services...."

but when the press release about the latest tweak by the LTA on the abovementioned rule to be more flexible, the same people...

Added Mr Foo Chi Yong, President of Premier Taxi Operators' Association, "I am relieved to note that the authorities have exercised flexibility in enforcing the new policy during the initial period.

"We are heartened by LTA's receptiveness to industry feedback. The proposed tweaks to the system will help ease the problems that our drivers have experienced on the ground. We will continue to work closely with the LTA and our associations to monitor the situation on the ground," said MrYang Ban Seng, CEO of ComfortDelgro's Taxi Business.

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how you perceive the before-and-after statements, i dont care. this isnt supposed to be a post to blast anybody. its for me to bitch.

it seems to me that LTA prefers using the monkey-proof approach towards regulating safety as well as efficiency of land transport systems. no doubt both are important, but once again, it is only a small relief to the situation whereby cabs get into fender benders with bus and other vehicles because of sudden swerving to alight/pickup passengers. to cut everything short, long term education is better than short term aggression. we got to remember that a good chunk of cabbies include elder singaporeans who eke out a living from driving 14 hours a day. they dont give a damn out of education on road safety if it doesnt give them more money. so yes, please take that into account, if any authorities actually spied on my blog to read this.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
enough enough. policies make me hungry. off for dinner~

=ns song=

2008-03-10T07:21:00.000-07:00

=hail me=

2008-03-05T07:25:00.000-08:00

Troops At Attention In Shining Armour
They Stand Before Me In Total Loyalty.
Raising Their Fists Into The Air
And Swearing Their Allegiance To Me.
Upon A Stallion Of Finest Blood
I Sit With The Greatest Of Pride.
As I Behold My Vast Empire
I Hold The Royal Standard High,
It Dances In The Roaring Wind
As The Salutes Are Heard In The Sky.
The Foretold Master I Am.
My Future Is Already Revealed.
In The Scrolls Of The Prophecy:
"...And He Shall Conquer The World
And Rule It With Great Majesty."
Hail Me As The Man Of Steel.
Hail Me As The Son Of Gods.
Hail Me As The King Of Yours.
I Am The Chosen One.
We Are The Undefeatable
So Be Proud Of What You Are.
Against The Threats Of The World
We Stand United Today.
Let's Not Take Their Mocking,
Let's Invade And Make Them Obey.

=selamat=

2008-02-29T18:25:00.000-08:00

have you seen this arsehole? i have other expletive names for him, but i shall not offend the other muslims that i deem to be good people. he's currently the man of the news, MAS SELAMAT KESTARI.

the man who made the entire home team and as basically the entire defence force on their toes. damn you vile creature. it is said that he may have fled the country (go thestaronline to check it out for sources, i cant be bothered). nonetheless, we're trying real hard to find him in singapore, though the only thing i am involved in is to prep the arms of the men who are on the reserve list to find him. lol. if i ever find him ill set my sparky on him, not because he's muslim, but because sparky will maul him to give him a taste of a terrorist attack, which in that case happens to be me. mwahahaha.

~+~+~+~+~+~+~

went for the one concert of a lifetime that no metal-head should ever miss, last sunday @fort canning.

ITS THE FUCKIN' HELLOWEEN LIVE IN SINGAPORE!

yes, the fathers of power metal came and said they were 'sweating like pigs' cause singapore is too hot for germans. anyway they started the house with "halloween" and as their interactive antics on stage goes along they dished out legendary tunes like 'eagle fly free', 'sole survivor', 'dr. stein' and many more, before ending their encore with the all time classic, 'i want out'. it was a night to remember and never to return again. totally enjoyed it as chants of 'happy happy helloween' filled the gig venue.
~~~~~~~~~~~

and so yea, my life is THAT boring.

2008-02-19T06:56:00.000-08:00

The Last Goodnight - Pictures Of You lyrics

=belated v-day POST=

2008-02-16T18:21:00.000-08:00

Unlike last year when i was stuck at pasir ris camp (or rather half the day had me stuck at pulau tekong jungle), this year i managed to spend the actual day with my hunny Meibao! but theres always a catch to everything, isnt it? i couldnt find a reservation at our usual restaurants nor at the new ones i tried ( i cant remember the names, so many! but NOT fullerton, as i recalled differently.)

so instead we went for valentines' lunch instead. as usual, marsche was on the deck.

after which, we shopped for a while, and she bought me a shirt BUT I PAID FOR IT RAWR.

by the time we're done with vivocity, it was already like say, 2pm? so off we went to sentosa! to see flowers LOL 赏花
well the place was ENORMOUS.....for a singaporean =x

lots of flowers of different kinds all over the place at some bloody big terrace THAT WE HAD TO CLIMB CAUSE THE ESCALATORS WERE DOWN.

if i didnt remember wrongly the photographer (some crew aka saikungwarrior for the event) actually felt amused by this boliao pose by us.

站在桃花树旁，有桃花运！LOL

we ended the day with a good ol' ride at the luge AND SKYRIDE which totally freaked the altophobic Meibao out. i used to be like that till the day i was arrowed to become an airborne ranger. then again maybe not. armourer > all
till next time then.

btw, have you realised THE ANG PAOS ALL SHRINKED? damn.

=guilty as charged=

2008-02-11T05:52:00.000-08:00

when i came home today, i felt a pang of guilt soon after i stepped in.

mum was half-hobbling towards to fridge, and got herself a couple of panadols to pop. i asked her, 'you sick ah?'

'ya lor, i have to go work now' was her reply.

it was like, suddenly i felt like the most evil person on Earth (like im not already a demon to some people =/) mum is sick yet she has to slog out late into the night for me to get that nice shirt off the new arrivals shelf? or that latest graphics accelerator or try out that fancy restaurant? all in the expense of her health. ohmygawd, im being such a big fucker.

i gave it a little thought into the future. kids these days are already losing their sense of value for money. comparing who has the most expensive obiang sling bag (sidenote, i still have to thank meibao for my barney rustle) or who else the most heels. its not even their own dough. also also, i have to thank the fact that i worked before i came into the army, so i know what it feels like to actually work for your own cash. (then again, the army makes it worse doesnt it) so anyway back to the point, i wont expect much difference thanks to the influence of pop culture. as they say in chinese, 衣来伸手，饭来张口. you wont feel the financial and emotional strain if youre not contributing for the well-being of others.

so after that heart-wrenching moment, i shall find a way to survive with just 437.50. and hopefully, SOMEONE PLEASE LET ME TUTOR THEM. PLS? LOL.

the point is, next time you want to spend the money that isnt yours, please think about how the person would feel when he/she just wants to earn that extra few bucks to give you some short-lived enjoyment, and more critically, YOU NOT APPRECIATING IT. nuff said.

=CJ7=

2008-02-09T21:59:00.000-08:00

on the 2nd day of cny, i went visiting with a special guest, that is my dear meibao. haha good for her cause she got so many more ang paos zzz. after which before i went to my aunt's place for dinner we went to watch 长江7号 cause she said kung fu dunk isnt nice. (on a seperate note, ive been told "ah long pte ltd" is quite a fine movie to watch despite the screwed up ratings. perhaps its the globalisation of reporters?)

*spoiler alert*
长江7号 is an atypical mo-lei-tau comedy by stephen chow and is something worth the watch no matter what kind of rating it gets. its about a boy (whos actually played by a girl, i was wrong LOL) and his darn poor father who decides to slog it out to send the son to an elite (uncaring face) private school while others usually settle for public schools.they live in a half torn down house thats surrounded by piles of trash, where e dad picks up old school shoes and such for the kid. one fine day after the kid wanted some crappy toy, dad picks up some funny ball like thing and gives it to kid. it turns out to be some space dog of sorts, and decides to call it 长江7号. nonsense slapstick humour ensues and at the middle of the story, dad dies from a freak accident at work (safety is one of SAF's core values) and whilst trying to revive dad, CJ7 runs out of batt and "dies" and turns into a small doll complete with X_X eyes. at the end while enjoying the new school term the kid finds e spaceship that gave it 长江7号 and it ends with a whole army of e same space dog with lots of different designs running towards it.

though its a comedy, it really puts out the feeling of having someone very close to you suddenly taken away, seemingly forever (when the dad died). not to mention the kind of loyalty and love that the space dog gave to the kid (to the point it ran out of batt lol) makes you want to give the same to the people you love.. (not the process of reviving him/her zzz) it kinda made me weep i admit, hence any movie that can make me do that when its supposed to (unlike movies like Alone, which made me sleep) is a success and worth all the stars people give it.
*end of spoiler*

and darn it MS is like, dead during CNY. then again singapore should appreciate service sectors more, and we ( i used to be one b4 i changed master [SAF] ) deserve a break at these kinda festivities. unlike my poor friends who were in camp taking long walks lol =x

and whats a date without camwhoring! too bad my cam ran out of batt too (LOL) in the middle of the session.
(photos will be added later. damn blogger's uploading system)

=borders=

2008-02-05T06:36:00.000-08:00

no its not that big bookstore at Wheelock.

on last saturday i saw this slogan on the kinky shirt that my uncle-in-law wore to reunion dinner @ ah yat. it goes:

"BORDERS ARE NOT DRAWN ON MAPS"

when i thought of it, kind of true though. borders to me, are more like lines in our head drawn to keep us away from scary people. the thing is, no one's scarier than ourselves, get it? (no racial offense) for every bangla joke up in the air, theres another chinese joke to shoot it down. so on and so forth, the idea's there.

regarding that, its kind of the result of borders in our head. if not for that, we wont be cultivated in a society that breeds with a tinge of fascism. that "we are the best in cheap wine and water recycling, many other countries want to learn from us!" [<--- designed statement]

(oh by the way if you havent realised, i was talking about national borders.)

so when you hear about all blondes being dumb, or scots being angry, chinese being noisy and bangladeshis being plain weird, dont just point the finger at anyone and scream 'racist' just yet.instead, blame the fact that we are evolving and developing too fast for our own good, and not being able to get over our mentality of tribes and villages and anti-gypsies (medieval europe) mentalities.
so what i forsee in the future is similar to what happens in the (rather) new anime series "Mobile suit Gundam 00", minus the big godly robots perhaps. in the anime, humans, in the 24th century, still fail to unite as one common ideal and participate in zero-sum war games with one another. this is despite the depletion of fossil fuels and the total dependence on solar energy in the form of giant solar panel batteries.
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honestly, i kind of lost my thoughts in the middle so i dont really know what im typing. haha then again, it really sets my mind thinking what would happen if we could one day, agree to "erase" away the non-existent borders on our lands. thats alot of rubber man.
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chinese new year's in a couple of days' time~! are you ready? went to give myself a little pampering (with a bit of help from mum la. im only a LCP for goodness. been so long since i had a head of black that isnt littered with white. these days though, dont you feel that festivities dont feel so much as they did say, 5 years back? back then when i was still wearing khaki shorts, festivities always like, a time-mark (derived from landmark. LOL) for me. its like saying "congratulations! you survived till (insert event)" holidays aside, i really enjoy the time spent with the people i like doing stuff that we like. (like mahjong mwahahahahahaha) but whats missing? oh well.

=its been a while=

2008-01-24T04:03:00.000-08:00

's been a while. had been paying attention to happenings at some other corner of cyberspace that almost seemed like they came right out of a b-grade channel 8 flick, my own stories almost drifted away and forgotten.

seems to me that people actually felt exasperated, of sorts, to a significant extent (oh please, social studies rox your sox) that i was pretty much the big bad wolf (small would be a better word, but who cares) who was 'teased' by the others. i mock at those who think others are different and strange just because they're all the same, as herd mentality takes over your feeble minds!

lately my confidence had taken quite a bad hit from quite a few sources, whom i shall keep to myself. its like back in my bronco days, the cold freezing water pouring over my head while i take a late night shower. PRESS ON! yuehan version X.0 (where x is an real number) codenamed 'fishy' isnt the weak one you know anymore.

been catching up with d.gray-man thanks to some friend of mine who decided to tell me all about it. speaking of anime, i dont know why taiwan idol dramas try so hard to look like its an anime.

as the US market looks like its ripe for a recession, so is my money. been spending too much during xmas season that it hit me pretty hard in January. its not as if the money wasnt well spent on my loved ones. as Anton puts it, "kindness to those who deserve it, instead of love wasted on ingrates"
oh right, straits times reports that the average income of cabbies after the rocket-hike of a price has gone up, from 307bucks to 318. i would say their sample size and variance is really erroneous, as my mum and many other full-time cabbies struggle to bring home even 250bucks of earnings a day. do please take away the 35% peak hour surcharge, its making the cabbies and their families' lives 35% more miserable.

and yea we've hit the great 2-0 month, and this year im gonna hit the big 2-0 too. damn it.

~~pick me for high noon, pretty pretty pls? =D i promise to be nice... m(_)m~~
no more haha. dont want already~

=coffee prince? coffee craze?=

2008-01-10T06:52:00.000-08:00

whats all the craze over coffee nowadays man. lattes, frappes, next we will have durian cuppas. or 4d numbers based on the number of mochas they serve on a certain date.

watched coffee prince just now, even though i skipped a few episodes due to my shagginess + laziness. even though it runs on an already dry storyline, i kinda think that its damn sad for a girl to act like a dude to get close to her crush. this episode shows her crush raining insults on her big time on a heat of anger. really man, i detest people who actually do nag nag nag scold nag at others. we're supposed to behave like advanced evolved primates, at least mentally, cause we dont look like we're gonna have extreme physical heroes-ic powers anytime soon. except maybe we got lots of cyclops giving eye power in camp. LOL

oh right i also detest guys that know girls for the sake of knowing more girls.

well even though ive got a prick i do know how its like to get your heart crushed. so please, dont crush the heart of the one youve already have. haha sounds very mushy mushy though.

had dinner at compasspoint with Dee and AhNeo just now cause i really couldnt tahan the gastric pain, and neither could they. BUT THE WAITRESS AT SAKAE FORGOT MY ORDER. leading me to gulp down two tofu (fake) sushi. so yea when my real order came i couldnt eat the last piece wth. and apologies for letting mb wait online for me for an hour bleah.

you know, everyone has their skeletons in the closet do they? well one of mine is that, i may most probably used to be the people that i hate now.

=story of a girl=

2008-01-03T06:09:00.000-08:00

This is the story of a girl,
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world!
And while she looked so sad in photographs,
I absolutely love her,
When she smiles...

How many days in a year?
She woke up with hope but she only found tears.
And I can be so insincere,
Making her promises never for real!
As long as she stands there waiting,
Wearing the holes in the soles of her shoes!
How many days disappear?
When you look in the mirror so how do you choose?
Your clothes never wear as well the next day,
And your hair never falls in quite the same way-
But you never seem to run out of things to say...

THIS IS THE STORY OF A GIRL,
WHO CRIED A RIVER AND DROWNED THE WHOLE WORLD!
AND WHILE SHE LOOKED SO SAD IN PHOTOGRAPHS,
I ABSOLUTELY LOVE HER,
WHEN SHE SMILES...

How many lovers would stay?
Just to put of with this shit day after day!
How did we wind up this way?
Watching our mouths for the words that we say.
As long as we stand here waiting,
Wearing the clothes of the souls that we choose!
How do we get there today?
When we're walking to far for the price of our shoes!
Your clothes never wear as well the next day,
And your hair never falls in quite the same way-
But you never seem to run out of things to say!...

THIS IS THE STORY OF A GIRL,
WHO CRIED A RIVER AND DROWNED THE WHOLE WORLD!
AND WHILE SHE LOOKED SO SAD IN PHOTOGRAPHS,
I ABSOLUTELY LOVE HER,
WHEN SHE SMILES...

Your clothes never wear as well the next day,
And your hair never falls in quite the same way-
But you never seem to run out of things to say...
This is the story of a girl,
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world!
And while she looks so sad in photographs,
I absolutely love her-

This is the story of a girl;
Her pretty face she hid from the world!
And while she looks so sad and lonely there,
I absolutely love her,
When she smiles...

This is the story of a - girl!
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world!
And while she looks so sad in photographs,
I absolutely love her,
When she smiles...
When she smiles.

=pre 2008=

2007-12-30T05:01:00.000-08:00

Goodbye mjc....
Goodbye pink IC..
Goodbye 2007..

Hello 2008...
Hello Pink IC...
Hello ORD...

how was your weekend? mine was spent uhh, as usual being a shopping boy, at least for today. its after all, good therapy. i think the only therapy is looking at all the posh and expensive and unnecessary luxury goods, and then motivating yourself to continue slogging your lungs out to earn enough money for them.

and young tweeny couples, if you dont look like youre gonna get married within the next 24 months, do avoid walking at the 3rd floor of marina square unless you want to get hounded by intense rivalry between 4 wedding studios. There i was happily holding hands and walking towards suntec, and suddenly one auntie popped out and asked us to go into her studio to take a look at her packages. if not for my quick wits in saying we're still in school (complete with cheeky 17 year old grin) i'll be stuck in some studio with my cabbage and criss-cut fries!

well, happy 2008 non-existent readers!

=tuition advert, for myself=

2007-12-28T02:56:00.000-08:00

hey everyone, im currently scouting for kids (yea kids. someone called me uncle already can?) , namely pri and sec school students for tuition. rates go from 15-20/hr depending on what am i covering with the client (wa, professional sial) my coverage goes:

~Primary school~
Maths
Science

~Secondary school~
Elementary Mathematics
Chemistry (pure/combined)
Physics(pure/combined)

i wouldnt mind going to your place for tuition, but i really really prefer for my student to live at the east/south area (i live at geylang. no, really, i do.) as im a dude, its not convenient for little kids to drop over at my place. so yeah. would not mind meeting outside if its a good conducive place to discuss. im available only on weekends currently, as i have busy days in the short term future ahead in camp.

sad to say, i cannot offer biology tuition as i didnt take the subject even at O level. sian. im a 7 subber who got 10 points! =D

interested students can always drop me an email: "andvari eight 8 at hawtmail dot com~" please do abit of interpretation thanks!

Heavy Metal Christmas

2007-12-24T06:25:00.000-08:00

On my heavy metal Christmas my true love gave to me,
12 silver crosses
11 black mascaras
10 pairs of platforms
9 tattered t-shirts
8 pentagrams
7 leather jackets
6 cans of hairspray
5 skull earrings
4 quarts of Jack
3 studded belts
2 pairs of spandex pants
and a tattoo of Ozzy!

=xmas surprise!=

2007-12-23T07:02:00.000-08:00

Its 2 more days to xmas. are you ready for it?

well 2 days ago, i wasnt. hence i decided to head out to town to town to hunt for food. i mean, presents. literally hunt ok, i went into the shops looking for something to kill. and who else to join me at the last minute (because he doesnt go to partyworld or kbox) but xiang loong! and he ate a ba zhang (dumpling) for breakfast! that makes it Xiang Loong 食 ba zhang. LOL.

literally walked up and down orchard road looking for tori Q . though we ended up munching on simple chilli dogs cause there was so many pricks eating at the same time! heres a complaint on that OMU RICE stall at the Ngee Ann city basement "food court" of sorts. we were there waiting for seats at that pathetic corner, but suddenly, noooo, but the counter auntie had to chase us away cause there were 2 people behind WHO HAVE ORDERED THEIR FOOD BUT HAVE NOT GOT PLACES YET. damn that old c**t.

see? xmas isnt really for me, MINUS the fact that i like to give my loved ones stuff without expecting anything back.

christmas@singapore this year is one of the most crappy ones i can ever imagine. especially at orchard. the formula goes:

perpetual vehicle traffic jams PLUS never-ending human traffic jams PLUS crazy cab fares PLUS lousy Christmas decoration MINUS ngee ann city's big xmas tree MULTIPLIED BY rain that looks like it came from a broken tap EQUALS crappy christmas. Alliteration at that!

speaking of cab fares, i am only a few cab rides short of writing letters to straits times' forum and to the land transport authority to bitch about it. they are practically stabbing them own asses (插自己的屁股) as well as helping the cabbies with theirs. 35% of metered fare as the peak period surcharge? no wonder i cant find a cab now! cause the cabbies are all at home crying over nobody wanting to take their cabs.

~Remember what i said about not expecting gifts back?~

BIG NEWS BIGGEST SHOCK OF MY LIFE!!!

omg, mabell's so nice to me~ see what she gave me for christmas!

shes so nice =] anw im not lacking back on her pressies as well! and towards my sis and mum as well. haha.

oh heres a riddle that my cousin told me. i got stumped zz.
"there are 3 switches for 3 seperate light bulbs. the switches and the bulbs are in different rooms. you are only allowed to move from the room with the switches to the one with the bulbs once and only once. how do you tell which switch belongs to which bulb?"

happy christmas oh non-existent readers! and a merry new year~

=chipmunk fever=

2007-12-19T08:12:00.000-08:00

please go catch this movie cause so its damn cute! i know its not a guy's thing to say 'cute', but yea it really feels quite sentimental when i watch it (ok la, i had a very filled childhood can. aint feeling no jealousy)

christmas is coming and yay i havent got my presents all ready yet zz. so yea shall spend the whole of tomorrow hunting. hope i get good drops =]

and i dont know what possessed me to take such neoprints but hey, looks great doesnt it. haha.

does anyone have a job to recommend to meibao. zzz. im getting kinda worried shes not successful with her job hunt.. =[

and for goodness sake, my english name is pronounced as YÜ HAN, not YUE HAN. after 19 years of errors, i think its time uh. only a handful of people ever got my name right on the first try.

=of rostis, eggs and seats=

2007-12-16T04:54:00.000-08:00

spent this leave season/weekend rather productively..

~friday~
had a great visitor *secret* who came to zap some documents, then sent her off to driving. now is her turn to drive in a storm wahahahhaha*

~saturday~
got a 2ntm sms from my dear mabell to go vivo for shopping. (really 2ntm sia, i woke up at 1000h =x) anw shopped all over the world (ok la, revolves around Forever21 zz) well before that....

we went to marsche for lunch (brunch for me). i must say it still can retain the quality done by the franchise version that withdrawn quite a few years back, and caused to have a bad date once with mabell cause i didnt know it folded up. =[
then again, the rosti, sausages and very-expensive-but-tasty mushrooms were fantastic, still having that same greatness that everyone knows. and the prices arent that ridiculous too. like 30 bucks for 2 people? my, they still provide cheap thrills after you leave the restaurant! (see below)

ok after lunch we went for the main event of the day: (window) shopping. then again, whats window shopping when you spend almost 100 bucks buying clothes for your girl AS PART OF XMAS GIFTS HOR. after being there for quite (many) few times ive come to think that their selections are pretty suitable for most ladies here, most importantly my dear mabell: (doesnt she look great haha)

well wanted to go wash our tired ~~(and stinky)~~ feet at the rooftop wading pool, but suddenly it POURED MAN. so we had to idle around, avoid people giving surveys and ended up at superdog, with her watching me gobbling down yet another sausage.

well ended saturday pretty shagged. started doing crazy things already.

`sunday`

father's birthday, bought a shirt and tie for him from topman on saturday when i was out with mabell. well he kinda liked it though. went tonkichi@suntec for brunch. my cousin brought me there once for the pork cutlets, which is their signature dish luh. so yea, my family liked it too, at my expense T_T then again its not ridiculous either, i mean the pricing. 70 odd for 4.

AND I CAME HOME TO REALISED ONE OF MY MEMORY CARDS FAILED. so yea, just came bac from sim lim sq with 2x 1gb kingston 667mhz cl5 cards. now my comp works like a charm. haha.

there was some drama on the way home though. some old fogey put his eggs on the far far away corner seats where couples love to makeout at and where nasty ex-boyfriends loved to scribble their ex-gfs' numbers at the back of the seats. the thing is, the bus is bloody crowded, and some guy wanted that fogey to move in. hence starts a big argument with the fogey tryin to protect his poor defenseless eggs. ended up in vulgarities hurled and to everyone's "sian-ness", the fogey called the cops and challenged the guy to wait with him till the cops arrived. somehow i feel the guy did the right thing by getting off the bus, irregardless of whether he had wanted to initially or not. no point wasting time with such people -__-
what ever happened to singaporeans? since when do such people exist zz

ok thats it, tomorrow, another week in hell! plus 1 day in the guardhouse zzz.

=genting, again=

2007-12-06T03:03:00.000-08:00

'has been a pretty busy week for me even though i only went to camp for 2 days. will only get busier as the year passes and when the year matches that of my ORD year (yay!)

my dear poor mabell's been very very busy lately. CIP ( i dont know why still CIP even though she graduated) at tangs (free labor i see), driving, and of course, shopping with me to get gears for prom. and till date i still have not found out who were the gang of people who made me get shortlisted for prom QUEEN. zzz.

anw today's her prom and well, hope the next batch of grads have fun. better than me at least zz.

and crap, the weather's pretty screwed up these few days. imagine learning driving in a storm. ok la, a good challenge and experience. then again my instructor liked to step on the instructor's brake pedal for no reason, bleh. *gives evil grin 'scared ah?'

ok, as the subject goes, im going to genting tomorrow morning. for fun laughter peace and joy. good day everyone. =]

19 months! lol. and 340 days more to go for pink ic zz.

=tuition advert=

2007-11-27T04:48:00.000-08:00

hi ppl (sounds familiar eh)
my girl's scouting for students for tuition, available for As and Os. subjects offered are as follows: -Chemistry,
-Maths,
-Physics (O lvl only),

if there is a need, you can tag on my board for a request and i will send you her CV. just in case. =]

=stupid technology=

2007-11-24T04:04:00.000-08:00

i have hereby concluded that sony memory stick pro duo SUCKS TO THE CORE. there goes my 20 hour of gameplay. now i shall support sandisk. haha.

=back from island=

2007-11-22T07:00:00.000-08:00

no more sft, no more tft, no more penguin ferry trip.

thats it, my due is done on this piece of rock that does more impact than some lighthouse rock the size of a soccer field, that is tekong. after 4 weeks of spelling ORD (not exactly that i will be very soon) to recruits and "drawing food" from the cookhouse in the same manner as we draw arms, as well as executing "operation snow white" or "exercise powder fairy", we have completed our recourse. WHEREBY, we used the (lousy) m16s for range and had some "outfield" of sorts. though being excused outfield, i found myself napping on grass. this could help for India later on zzz. -__-

made lots of good friends, including noisy ones, sizey (=x) ones, powder/kiwi/camo-cream fairies, and of course your everyday act-beng soldiers and "air-level" students who cant get enough of showing off their superior intelligence to those who display the extreme lack of it. whatever it is, thanks for giving me a great time section 5 =D

well bad news is that i MAY end up in india for some exercise, details unknown and classified. bleah. from tom yam to oyster sauce noodles to curry. here we go again.

im looking for fellow monster hunters lol. at least i've got people to fight the stupid rathalos with me.

=M&F=

2007-11-07T05:44:00.000-08:00

Search for beauty, find your shore
Try to save them all, bleed no more
You have such oceans within
In the end
I will always love you

The beginning.

=week2=

2007-11-03T20:29:00.000-07:00

well after 2 weeks ive come to realise the benefits of getting OOC. then again some people are still weak enough to OOC from a recourse. what csm said made sense, that alot of youngsters nowadays just live life by the day. even if you are happy with your life, those that you depend on may not be. i cant bear but pity those who just want to waste their time around, as if the only thing they await is their death.

on another note, week2 was filled with bed-pool exercises. very tiring sia. plus IMT. i wonder why people say night-shoot is so difficult. oh well, ill find out tomorrow for live range.

1.5 years already =]
still, all the best for A levels! jia A jia A (cannot jia U jia U LOL)

=quick entry=

2007-10-28T02:26:00.000-07:00

well a quick one before i book in to tekong again.

my first week certainly wasnt the most pleasant one, being thrown up to the 5th floor bunks despite being platoon 2, but section FIVE LOL. but yeah living at the top floor has its advantages. like leeway for being late, no bees lizards rats anything. and well, 1 week is spent learning about the favorite-weapon-to-BER which i already know how to zz. as well as looking at all sorts of people, smart people and of course, stupid people that are stupid beyond belief.

well yea A levels would begin this coming week. would want to wish my darling ~MABELL LEW~ all the best in her papers, and hope she outshines me by getting straight As zz. as well as everybody taking As i know!

this week's gonna be exciting. shooting, shooting, and more shooting! like yay -___-
~~~~~~~~~~~

well after being away for one whole week its like, the whole world has changed quite abit haha. even though for the short period of time. we've got new airplanes, 12 year old chick who completes O lvl with 6 A1s, more legal stuff regarding homos, and crazy stuff like a stupid guy strangling his gangster daughter to death. like wth?

speaking about kids now, ive been to the barber this saturday, no thanks to the tekong barber and her crappy skills. anw, saw this kid with some afro-wannabe hairdo, and from the way hes disturbing the barber, he has absolutely no respect for someone elder than him. not the only time ive seen such kids. if this goes on, ill have to think twice about raising a kid, at least in singapore. oh well, fuck fate.

*left ah left ah left right (bronco!)
*left right (platoon 2)
*left right (ORD!)

=curse=

2007-10-19T08:41:00.000-07:00

and so the curse continues. another sec4 victorian died. no thanks to lousy driving. if all were true about the news reports and hearsay, fuck the driver man. why isit vs guys always make the news for the wrong things. eg bank fraud, suicide, accidental death =/

could be a while before i post again. i will be going to an old folks home at an undisclosed military camp. for about a month i guess. so till then.

ps. DARK PASSION PLAY is worth the buy man.

=nemo=

2007-10-14T04:25:00.000-07:00

This is me for forever
One of the lost ones
The one without a name
Without an honest heart as compass

This is me for forever
One without a name
These lines the last endeavor
To find the missing lifeline

Oh how I wish
For soothing rain
All I wish is to dream again
My loving heart
Lost in the dark
For hope I'd give my everything

My flower
Withered between
The pages two and three
The once and forever bloom gone with my sins

Walk the dark path
Sleep with angels
Call the past for help
Touch me with your love
And reveal to me my true name

Oh how I wish
For soothing rain
All I wish is to dream again
My loving heart
Lost in the dark
For hope I'd give my everything

Oh how I wish
For soothing rain
Oh how I wish to dream again
Once and for all
And all for once
Nemo my name for evermore

Nemo sailing home
Nemo letting go

Oh how I wish
For soothing rain
All I wish is to dream again
My loving heart
Lost in the dark
For hope I'd give my everything

Oh how I wish
For soothing rain
Oh how I wish to dream again
Once and for all
And all for once
Nemo my name for evermore

Nemo my name for evermore

=rich and famous=

2007-10-04T08:00:00.000-07:00

I don't believe in fame, I believe in music.
I don't believe in money, I believe in the power of love.
I know I got a brain and I know how to use it.
I don't want no one to stick his finger in my pie.

You think you put your best foot forward
But it is moved by someone else.
In blind belief you follow every path that says:
I lead you to a universe of fortune, fame and luck.

Do you really wanna be - rich and famous, rich and famous.
Do you really wanna be - rich and famous now.

I don't believe in Rock 'n' Roll illusions.
I don't believe that what they say must always be the truth.
I don't believe in good guys against bad guys.
I just might as well say I believe in Santa Claus.

You think you put your best foot forward
But it is moved by someone else.
In blind belief you follow every path that says:
I lead you to a universe of fortune, fame and luck.

Do you really wanna be - rich and famous, rich and famous.
Do you really wanna be - rich and famous now.

Mr. Big shot what is your game
Mr. Big shot what is your final aim.
Now you wonder who is to blame.
Mr. Big shot what is your final aim in life.

Rich and famous, house with two hours, big jacuzzi, car with TV.
Private airplane, furs and diamonds, seafood cocktails-
CRAP AND BULLSHIT!

Do you really wanna be - rich and famous, rich and famous.
Do you really wanna be - rich and famous now.

=updates updates!=

2007-10-03T07:41:00.000-07:00

1. Myanmar's junta is so screwed man. not only did they post down protesting mobs, its monks that they're posting down with live rounds. plus they hit a journalist. and nobody hits a journalist, none the more kill one in point blank. they're only short of an all-scale invasion. watch the many other spaces for what saga that may come.

2. someone is a very big bastard now that hes certain to have 3 chevrons. well now i will represent everyone to say that you are one big fucker KL. always either trying to shirk responsibilities/jobs away or to conquer over others. the only thing you will lead if you carry on next time is my MG barrel up your ass. you are a disgrace to all specialists. you should not even have been admitted into the course.

3. i shall now remind everyone that A LEVELS AND O LEVELS ARE COMING SOON WAHAHAHAHA. my first october that i didnt have to worry about anything.

4.yay passed my BTT. like who can fail la. i looked at the entertainment screen at the test waitin area, and it says that 76% of students pass BTT on the first try. weirdly enough a china woman opposite me failed =/

5. and i have concluded that it is very easy to manipulate tired people on the mrt to do funny things. especially china workers or students travelling trans-island.

6. well i can also conclude that my shadows not the only one anymore =]

=skeletons in the closet=

2007-09-24T07:56:00.000-07:00

well first of all i would like to deeply apologise to kenny for sparking off a series of unfortunate events that led him to kena so many extras that he may not have the chance to clear b4 he officially ORD. =[

for the record, i play guitar, not the drums can zzz. yea sure the post was made a year ago, but well, NOBODY LIKES TO HAVE PEOPLE POKING FUN AT OTHERS' RELATIONSHIP, SO BEAT IT.

as how one guy stabbed me back in vs days, "
'you like to comment so much, get a girl and show off lah!"

lol, proves how jc kids think these days huh.
*inspired by scott, the armoured infantry from mj thats now in gedong mwahaha.

one thing i dont know why, it doesnt even matter how hard you try.
in the end... i have a brighter future than all of you.
the school of hard knock-knock jokes and careless whispering gossips resulting in simple javascripts that can be easily overriden. this is the place where the have-nots end up mocking at the haves.

they say army makes a man out of a boy. i'd say, army makes a man realise how boy/girlish the feeble are.
jealous groupies. haha!
and really, i dont know what should i continue typing about.

=your guardian angel

2007-09-20T06:53:00.000-07:00

When I see your smile, tears roll down my face. I can't replace.

And now that I'm strong, I have figured out,
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul.
And I know, I'll find, deep inside me, I can be the one.

I will never let you fall.
I'll stand up with you forever.
I'll be there for you through it all.
Even if saving you sends me to heaven.

It's okay. It's okay. It's okay.

Seasons are changing and waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us.
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter,
I can show you I'll be the one.

I will never let you fall.
I'll stand up with you forever.
I'll be there for you through it all.
Even if saving you sends me to heaven.

'Cause you're my, you're my, my, my, my true love,
My whole heart, please don't throw that away.
Because I am here, for you.
Please don't walk away, and please tell me you'll stay.

Whoa-oh-oh
Stay
Whoa-oh-oh

Use me as you will, pull my strings just for a thrill.
And I know I'll be okay, though my skies are turning gray.

I will never let you fall.
I'll stand up with you forever.
I'll be there for you through it all.
Even if saving you sends me to heaven.

I will never let you fall.
I'll stand up with you forever.
I'll be there for you through it all.
Even if saving you sends me to heaven.

=mummy's words=

2007-09-19T06:34:00.000-07:00

听妈妈的话,别让她受伤

=everlasting beauty=

2007-09-12T04:32:00.000-07:00

Caress the one, the Never-Fading
Rain in your heart - the tears of snow-white sorrow
Caress the one, the hiding amaranth
In a land of the daybreak

=small animals=

2007-09-11T06:20:00.000-07:00

i suppose ns life makes people bored, but to my aghast, its to the point of thinking of ways to potentially torture a dumb mouse who got stuck in a bucket in the workshop.

even satanism dictates the non-killing of non-human animals unless for food or defense. its not like we want to eat rats. want to eat, also eat snake right. haha lame -____-
the point is how my colleagues reacted when i took the mouse out to release it. its as if i've created a disaster by letting the rat off. to think how grateful the rat looked at me before running off.

Satan represents man as just another animal, sometimes better, more often worse than those that walk on all-fours, who, because of his “divine spiritual and intellectual development,” has become the most vicious animal of all.

i aint being anti-__________[fill in the blanks], but its startin to make more and more sense, as a statement about man itself.

=一人一半=

2007-09-01T06:54:00.000-07:00

《一人一半》
演唱：伍加輝
改編詞:小寒曲:伍加輝

一人一半感情不散
一人一素故感情才會久
時光累計安靜的淚滴
一心去追愛那么可貴

Chorus：
這樣的人這樣地等
無非是等個回應眼神
為愛翻滾不計傷痕
甘心為你一生都浮沉

這樣的人別笑我蠢
傻傻的心痛也不覺疼
就算天冷就算殘忍
等你想起這沒用的人

一人一半感情不散
已經找到愛為何要離開

時光累計安靜的淚滴
一心去追愛那么可貴

Repeat Chorus*

一人一半感情不散
已經找到愛為何要離開
已經找到愛為何先離開